It's a good sore..

Man oh man... I hurt!  But it's good!

Yesterday was Booty Day and I killed it!  3 reps of everything. It was hard. I was pouring sweat but it did feel good.  So, I'm a slave to the scale and I know I need to break that.  This morning I was up from Monday.  I'm sure it was probably residual from the popcorn I had over the weekend or something and not drinking enough water - but the scale is a hard habit to break.  I'm not going to take measurements until the end of Phase 1, but I know I'll still weigh.  In a way it's good because it does put you in check if you're straying from your plan; but if you're doing everything right and it's not going the right way, it's depressing. 

Don't worry, though, I'm not discouraged.  My soreness is an indicator that I am "doing great things." Sometimes all the motivational speak just irks me. haha

It's not like these are false.  And I used to be more positive.  I just need to regain that -- lose the negative vibes.  And maybe it's just that the people I hear saying them sound fake.  I dunno!  But I just need to regain the right energy and embrace these quotes and believe.   

Tonight I'll go to Cardio Drumming (YAY!) and then come home to do Cardio Core (boo...) LOL But it'll be good. I'm so proud of both Steve and myself for sticking with this.  I can't wait to see the results we have at the end of the program.  After this one, we'll have to find a new program to do together.  This is way easier than getting to the gym together.  I'm just not a gym girl either... I do "ok" once I'm there....but to convince myself to go... nah.  I would much rather build a home gym and be able to just do stuff like this.  Having some good equipment would be great too, I'd just rather do it at home.  

Welp, I think that's it for today.  Gonna work on staying more positive about all things today.  Those negative thoughts creep in and take over sometimes... and not just with diet or body image... but whatever starts it, it can snowball - and I'd prefer to think happy thoughts :D So I shall!

Have a great humpday!

xoxox

Katie

A full week down

And I've only cried a little...

Friday was leg day. We actually did really well. We had taken the girls out to see The Illusionists.  I feel like this was one of the few times we didn't eat out when we were going to an event - especially downtown.  We all ate ahead of time.  Of course getting there, you just smell all the amazing cinnamon almonds and whatnot, but Steve and I were good. We got the girls snacks and we just had water.  When we got home, we got them both in bed and then rocked it out!  

Saturday..... Saturday was just an emotional day for me... we all have those.. (At least that's what I tell myself...) hahaha  It wasn't anything in particular. I was just feeling drained a bit and just like anything could just set me off.  So it was a little rough at times.  I already wasn't looking forward to Cardio Flow [because cardio is the devil]...but knew it needed to be done.  I told Steve that we should just do it.  (This was mid-day)... This was the workout that broke me.  I was filled with "I can'ts" and tears did well up.  I felt knocked down.  This is the time that I normally would've just shut it off, called it a day and probably wouldn't have continued. Luckily as emotional as I was, I had Steve with me and I kept going.  I didn't get every rep in.  There was a move or two that I just didn't attempt.  My form probably wasn't amazing.  My arms and knees crack like crazy. But I kept moving for the most part.  I was glad to be done -- and then bummed that this will be every Saturday for the rest of the program. LOL  But, I know it will get better....it has to, right?!?! 

Saturday afternoon was my niece's bday party.  I prepped myself for this... here's how it went in my head:
     Okay, so I'm not going to have pizza.  I might have a piece of cake...but not if it's just a Kroger cake because I could have those any time.... But if it's a bakery cake, maybe I'll have a small piece.... **arrive at the party and see bakery box** Well, shit... okay... Oooh it's chocolate cake (frosting) - I can resist that. It's totally not my favorites. I'm just not a chocolate cake/chocolate frosting girl...  Perfect!  **texts Kelly - I'm not having pizza or cake!!**  Feeling good... Thennnnn, they cut it.. F it's not chocolate cake...it's strawberry or cherry! Damnit!!! One of my favorties (but with different frosting..)  Oh well..... I still passed on it. #WINNING

We got Chipotle for dinner and it was amazing.  I think that will be our "splurge" place.  It's so good and not all that bad for you.  

Yesterday we went to see Avengers: Infinity War.  It was really good.  I did have popcorn and a diet pop, but that was my breakfast and lunch...

Sooooooo...all in all, the weekend was good.  A bit draining emotionally, but it wasn't just one thing.  It wasn't the diet or exercise....well I guess cardio flow didn't help! LOL  But I'm ready for a new week. I'm feeling good.  Feeling proud of myself.  I meal prepped a ton yesterday...felt like I was on my feet all day long.  My biggest downfalls for the weekend were not drinking enough water and not being good about timed nutrition.  We'll just keep chugging along!!

Since it's been a full week, I'll share my progress:  11 lbs gone!  

And with that, I hope everyone has a great week.  Make the most of it!

xoxox
Katie

3 down - 77 to go!!

I can't lie and say I'm 100% doing this for my health.  I want to look good and to FEEL that I look good!  I want to not have to buy plus size clothes.  I guess whatever the motivation is, as long as it's getting done, that works!!  Win Win! Today is day 4 of the 80 Day obsession - it will be AAA -- abs, arms and ass!  Last night was cardio and it was not quite my favorite {to say the least}.  I still can't manage the sliders for most of the exercises and so I did modify a lot.  Sometimes I would just hold a plank for the exercises they were using them for.  I sweat a lot though.  

I am REALLY proud of myself though.  I feel weird saying that, and I know that I shouldn't, but this is the most I've exercised in a long time.  I haven't bitched or complained really at all.  I think maybe last week when we were doing the "Little Obsessed" stuff, there was a day when I really didn't want to do it - maybe sulked a little - but powered through.  So far this week, there hasn't been any of that.  Drink our pre-workout drink and get it done!  Just going to try to get it going a little earlier tonight. I'm beat this morning.  Tempted to take a nap on my lunch.

Today as soon as I walk in to work, everyone's talking about bagels, pastries and goodies that are in the conference room.  Normally they're right by our cubicles next to the coffee pot, so I'm glad they're not anywhere that I'm going to pass all day!  I had a sweet potato with pb and chia for breakfast -- sounds strange, but it's tasty and filling!  Just going to keep going... keep doing this... 

I have weighed myself... yes, I know.. HI, I'M KATIE AND I'M A SCALE ADDICT {when I'm making good choices}  I won't share my progress yet, but I am down and really happy about that.  Just want to keep moving in that direction.  I just have a feeling I will have great before and after pics when these 80 days are done.  Let me tell you - before pics were not pretty!! LOL 

So here's to Thursday.... c'mon weekend!

xoxo
Katie


 

On to Day 2!!

Yesterday was the official DAY 1 of the 80 Day Obsession program for us.  I didn't die! Whoohoo!

It was a great day.  I stuck to our meal plan - no candy, no snacks, no feeling deprived!  I busted my ass once I got home and got dinner going, lunch for today going and baked some sweet potatoes for breakfast this morning.  Yes - weird. But surprisingly good... Sweet Potato with peanut butter, chia and banana.  I dig it.  

Oh and btw, I'm having my yummy sweet potato over all these bagels that were brought in today.... F Bagels.  Jerks!  lol 

Yesterday's dinner was so good. Of course a second helping would've hit the spot, but this was the first time I've ever been happy with a whole wheat pasta dish.  It was this baked pasta dish -- whole grain penne, spinach, tomatoes, ricotta, parm and mozzarella... that's the gist of it!  Just very satisfying and good!  Portion control is key :) 

So after Claire went to bed, we got our workout in. The hour wasn't bad. It went a lot quicker than I thought it would have.  Did I hit every move? No. Every rep? No.  But I worked my ass off and tried.  I had to modify some, but not everything.  Steve and I both pushed through and burned and sweat!  I need some shoes for indoor workouts tho.  That'll be helpful!  This was last night.  I'm just going to keep going and going and see where I wind up on day 80.  So excited to see before and after pic comparisons then!!  

Today is BOOTY day!  Looking forward to it!  I'm sore, but it's a good sore.  121 days til VACATION.  Gonna have a good body....at least better than it is now.  

I hope everyone has an awesome Tuesday -- one day closer to Friday!! 

xoxox
Katie

Friday Eve!

Sore...sore...sore...

Yes, that's how I'm feeling.  My knees especially hurt, but everything else is that good kind of sore.  So last night, not only did I do the Day 3: A Little Obsessed workout, but before that I went to cardio drumming.  As soon as I walked in, I told Steve let's just get this over with before I sit down and really don't want to do it. So that's what we did.  I still don't know how I'm going to do the hour long workouts, but we'll get it done. I haven't gotten the hang of the bands, so I haven't been using them around my thighs for those moves.  I'm not sure if it's just because I'm bigger or what - but I can't get them on and flat, but I'm still doing the moves.  Now we just gotta get our meal plan in order and we'll be good!!!  

I'm excited to have that planned out.  I do much better when I don't have to think about what's for dinner or lunch.  I've got a spreadsheet ready to go and everything.  As long as I can get to bed at a decent time, I want to start getting up to do either yoga or meditate.  I need something like that in my life.  I've talked about it before, but haven't given that the green light yet.  I don't want to take on too many new things all at once, but I do think that this is important.  Sometimes I still feel the stress and anxiety creep up on me. I want to feel free from that!  I know it will make a difference.

So tonight we're going out to dinner with friends and then we'll work out when we get home and get Claire to bed.  Today I think is cardio -- BOO!!!! But 30 min. I can do this :) I hope everyone is having a great day.

xoxo

Katie

T Minus 5 Days

Everybody is doing it...right?! 80 Day Obsession from BeachBody. I've heard so many people doing it - seen some friends have great results on the first go around.  Now the next program is starting 4/23.  Steve and I are doing it.  We already have the BeachBody on Demand so why not use it in something organized and focused.  This is 80 DAYS.  This is going to be no joke.... 

So you know I am not in shape by any mean...except roundish...so you know I'm brilliant to sign up for a program which is 6 days a week, 1 hour a day.... It's gonna be ahhhhmazing.  Yeah... so... Steve and I - in an effort to see what we're getting ourselves into - did the first work out in "A Little Obsessed" yesterday. This is a good prelude...easier..shorter..annnnnnnnd I thought I was gonna die.  LOL  Okay, so maybe I'm being a little dramatic.  I had a headache going into it though, so that probably didn't help.... BUT I did it.  I might not have hit every move as I was fumbling with trying to figure out these stupid loops - HA - but I did it.  I sweat. I burned. I did.  

I wasn't going to do it.  I know me. I get pumped up about stuff .. get overly excited .. ambitious .. and then give up or get discouraged.  I knew this was going to be hard. I know this isn't some easy peasy thing.  But then I saw some Instagram before and after pics that really got me. BIG girls like me... making a difference.  I need to do more research to see if I can find their stories... to see if they have blogs of their journey... So I can read that it IS hard, but it CAN be done by someone of my size.  I hope I can find someone who blogged about their 80 days.  

So I am going to do my best to not give up. To hit every workout of the 80 days.  To share the good, the bad and the ugly.  I do know that being bigger gives me the opportunity to have more drastic changes over the 80 days.  I'd love for this to be something that I really succeed in. No matter the outcome - to actually complete the program will be awesome.

xoxo

KATIE

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So i debated on even writing an update today, but what the hell I suppose!  You just get to a point and you're like - well, I've already said everything - probably three times by now.  Same story.  Different day.

The struggle is real. The struggle never seems to end.  I've been doing weight watchers, but not 100% and it's obviously shown.  On the 17th I had been down 6 lbs since starting again in Jan.....but then gained a couple lbs last weekend.  So it's been tough.  I've gotten myself a month's worth of Herbalife to hopefully jump start another loss.  We're going to give it a go.  We've got a vacation planned in August and I really want to feel more comfortable with my body.  I want to find confidence and enjoy my curves - just less of them!  I would love to get a cute suit for the beach - and just cute summery clothes in general.  So I have goals...it's still just that rocky road I've got to get across.  The road is like walking across legos in your bare feet.  OUCH.

I'm really not savvy with Instagram or Snapchat, but I do find myself starting to follow people for inspiration.  People who are curvy and embracing it, transformation stories, and just those who exude confidence.  I'm going to be that.  If you have any blogs or stories I should follow, let me know!! I wish I were rich and could buy a whole new wardrobe of cute plus size clothes.... you know, those clothes that cost a fortune and never are on sale.... LOL  I just want to get out of plus size so stuff is easier to find...cuter...and I feel more comfy.  I swear one day I will do it.  

I haven't been to cardio drumming in a few weeks due to being sick, but I will get back there.  I'm going to pull out my Gazelle (LOL) and start using that too.  I've got 5 months.  I want to see what I can really do if I push myself.  If anyone is looking to help keep me accountable and be a texting buddy, please do!  I make no promises, but I will try to update more often here.  I just rarely know what to say that I haven't said already.  I feel like I just have a really boring blog where people read it and yawn... like seriously, this girl can't get her ish together. LOL 

So I will quit boring you and hope you have a great day!!

Stay strong. Stay focused. 
xoxo
Katie