Variety is the spice of life

I'm either being smart or stupid...yep, one of them...

So partly due to being frugal and partly due to thinking this is probably a smarter choice, from today through Saturday I'm going to be following Herbalife.  Since I had already made some bad choices this week, and since on Saturday I will be eating "real" food at the fundraiser, I'm choosing to use up some of the HL we had in the cupboard {we still had SO much} I figure that it takes about 3 days to get into ketosis when you've been bad / eaten things other than what was approved and it sounded like a better idea to me to not waste my Better MD supplements.

The goal is still the same - to lose weight - I'm not giving up and stuffing my face with chips/cookies/candy etc.  I'll be doing two shakes a day and a sensible dinner (or another shake).  And I will get right back on with my Better MD supplements and VLCD on Sunday.  Just seems like the best decision financially and dietwise.

It was weird packing food today.  But I have my two shakes, a greek yogurt, string cheese, cashews and a banana and apple.  Gonna have some HL tea soon too.  I'm glad it's Wednesday, but I wish it was Friday :) 

Hope everyone has a great day!!

~*~Katie~*~ 

Confession...

Sorry guys... 

I had pizza last night....oh, and some chocolate....
I know, I know...stupid decision.  It might seem weird, but sometimes I just need to feel like I have a choice...like I have some control.  Honestly, it {the pizza} wasn't even that great.  It was good, but I do actually feel kinda bad about it.  So I suppose that's good. lol  Now the chocolate was just because I had really been wanting some since Easter, and since I already was bad........ ya know.  But still. The chocolate was amazing...

Anyhow - I've got all my supplements for today.  It's such a rainy, yucky day out.  I just wanna sleep for a couple more hours today.  So I debated on not posting today - for obvious reasons - but everyone should know that they can screw up and change things around the next day :) 

So good luck to everyone restarting or facing any challenges today :) 

--Katie

P.S. Any bets on how long it will take Kelly to yell at me??? 

My first perfect weekend....ever?

Might be! LOL  That's with a birthday party in the mix too.  

From yesterday to today I was up half a pound --- that's what I get for my compulsive weighing.  It's a bummer because I know I only ate 470 calories --- I skipped one supplement...doubt that had anything to do with it, but still, not fun to see the scale go up even a little when you know you were perfect.  Anyhow - other than moodiness I was fine.  I really am more moody with this diet.  Like WAY more.  And in the back of my mind I know this isn't the healthiest way of losing the weight.  But, if I can get to 199 by doing the VLCD I may switch to the mid plan and start incorporating "real" food.  I remember from orientation that that one still utilizes the supplements, but I don't recall how much. 

So talking numbers, from Wednesday when I was up to 248.1, I'm back down to 245.3.  From a week ago today though, I'm only down a half a pound.  lol Darn fluctuations!  I'm super tired today and my head is hurting a bit from my sinuses.  It really sucks.  Don't feel like being at work - but who does on a Monday especially!?  

I was totally going to stop at the gas station for a Monster this morning....and I forgot!! GASP!  I did bring a Dr. Zevia ... basically a diet pop that has no sugar or artificial sweeteners.  It is sweetened with erythritol which I didn't look up til today but it sounds pretty good -- much better than those fake sweeteners. {Note: this is only the first page I found -- I haven't done extensive research --- and I'm sure that water is totally better!}

Info on Erythritol

Events going on this weekend that will be challenging:

• My neices actual birthday - hanging out for dinner and cake (which I will have none *siiiigh*) 
• Date night - bowling fun!! 
• AARDA Derby Luncheon - fundraiser that the ladies in my family have been going to for years.  I do plan on enjoying the luncheon -- typically has been chicken breast, salad and veggies.
• Game night (UGH!!) It's the same day as the luncheon...

Soooooo it will be a little tough.  But I'll do my best.  Can I just say, all I want (at the moment) is steak.  I surely would've settled for pizza yesterday, but what I really wanted was an awesomely grilled steak.  It's the little things. hahahaha

Anyhow --- just wanted to make sure I gave an update after the weekend to let you all know that I behaved.  

<3 Katie

Today I...

....did not have pizza...did not have cupcakes....didn't have burgers or hot dogs and I survived! 

I did have a hard boiled egg but skipped out on one of my supplements so I think it should balance out. I don't think there are really any carbs in eggs if I'm remembering correctly and it had less calories than my shakes. 

Had a great time at Olivia's birthday party today. It was at a state park where they had riding stables so all the kids got to ride horses. So cute. Claire loved it!! And today marked our third day of no accidents! So there is really truth to that three day method -- but I love that she woke up one day ready to do it. As much as it's amazing to not have to deal with diapers, it's still a little sad that she's growing up so quickly. In just over a month she'll be 3... I just love her to pieces :)

Tomorrow shouldn't be a hard day. I've got an origami owl party which will be fun! Because of that, I'm missing another birthday party so at least I won't have that food temptation!! It's crazy how much food can tie to our emotions. It's kinda sad that I get cranky just thinking about the food I can't have....which yes, is just about everything - lol - but still. I still eat. I still am getting the nutrients and fuel my body needs but our world (at least our country) just is so used to over indulging and eating for fun that emotions really get tied into it. It's like, dang an ice cream cone or a cupcake would make me really happy -- and it really shouldn't. 

Anyhow, I feel like I'm just rambling now and I'm typing on my phone so I don't want to risk losing everything I've already typed...(happened before) so have a good night!! 

--Katie

Ya know...

....the worst part of your husband reading your blog is that he holds you accountable for what you say in it....

Haha...love you babe... but seriously, as most evenings go, that's where i lost it.  All I wanted was Slice of the 80s......their pizza is delicous and I could totally go for some cheese bread.  Yes. I know. Horrible for me. I probably would've gained 5 lbs overnight.  But he's like "No way. You have to stay accountable like you said in your blog." Damnit! But thanks to him, I'm down a pound today.  

26 lbs gone. I haven't been this *light* since September.  I'm getting there.  So last night I couldn't sleep for crap.  OMG. I swear I tossed and turned and then was wide awake from 2-4:30 or so...UGH.  All I wanted was to take some Nyquil at 3 a.m. but I knew nothing good (except sleep) would come of that.  If I think I'm tired now, I would've been zombie tired had I taken anything.  

I feel like my blog has to be kinda (probably really!) boring for people to read. SORRY! It's not like I can share recipes or food ideas....It'd be like "Today, I took a packet of pudding, and mixed it with 4 1/2 ounces of water for a thinner pudding...oooooohhhh" LOL Sorry guys.  But I really appreciate all the support - it seriously means the world to me.  Some people have said they're shocked with how honest I am -- to me, the scale is a number...a number I don't want to see anymore....it is what it is, so I don't have a problem sharing it.. I'm working on it.  I know some people are going through the same struggles with weight as I am....the same issues with food.....the same troubles staying motivated, so all I want to do is maybe be a little inspiration or motivation for someone... I know I have a coworker who was complimenting me this morning - she said, "now I need to do it!"  I'm very honest...it's hard...it sucks...but I know it'll be worth it!  If I feel better after 26 lbs....how will I feel after 50 lbs are gone? After 100 lbs?! I'm so excited to find out.  

Do I struggle? Yes!!  Do I complain? Yes!  Do I want to give up? NO!  

A big shout out to Steve and Kelly for being my biggest (and strictest) cheerleaders -- and a big thank you to everyone who reads this, likes & comments, relates, or is in the same boat.  Love you guys!! Seriously :) 

-- Katie

Lesson learned...just remind me!

Hmmm....who knew that 2 or 3 days of careless eating would be so detrimental....ummmm yeah, I guess common sense would've told me that.  Boo.

Weighed myself in this morning and I'm less than a pound lighter than last Wednesday :( Boo!!!  These little hiccups are not a good thing.....I need to be more in control!!!

I'll try to go today with only some raw veggies if I need it, in addition to my supplements. I am having some coffee with sugar free creamer this morning.  This weekend the only real tempation should be Saturday for my neice's birthday --- BUT my plan is to avoid any pizza AND *sigh* cupcakes and stay 100% on track.  So, do me a favor and remind me of this on Saturday you guys!!! Mkay? So here's where I am right now:

Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter

I'm getting close to that half way mark.  I'm also down to about 73 days to reach my 199 goal.  I need to stay more committed!!  I will be SO proud of myself if I can do this.  Okay - so 13.1 lbs to go until my first goal -- 235......  I'm giving myself until May 7th to get there....that's 3 weeks.  Goals... I think that's what I need.... Little goals along the way to help get me to the sunshine at the end of my ticker :) 

Always Remember Your Why
Why I'm doing this...
*To be healthy
*To live longer
*To be an active mom
*To retrain my body/mind 
*To set a great example for my daughter so she doesn't have to go through these struggles
*To fit into smaller clothes
*To look better
*To prove to myself that I CAN

Of course there's more goals/whys but I'll leave it at that today.  
What day is it???? HUMP DAY! Have a good one, guys!

--Katie

*sigh*

So yesterday I was good up until dinner.  I decided to have leftovers.  And then dessert..... 

Perfection - that is what today will be - I don't really feel bad for yesterday though..... that's probably not good....

Can I just say I'm frustrated with my body --- girl stuff -- I won't go into detail but I'm really sure this diet messes with your hormones and cycles.  That's the downfall.  But worth it if you consider all the good -- pounds lost, feeling better, being healthier...  Guess I can deal :) 

A while back, I had found this quote / photo on Pinterest. I really like it.  It's a great reminder that yeah, this is gonna be hard and suck, but with each day you get closer to to your goal it's totally worth it!

I didn't become a 100+ lbs overweight in a day, a week, a month or even a year.  It took time to pack on the pounds.  I can't undo it all in one day or month either.  This diet is giving me an opportunity though... I could totally undo the weight within a year.  Completely doable if I give it my complete dedication.  Of course, throughout this journey I still need to retrain my mind and body.  I can't just live and eat the same way I did or I'll just regain it all again.  And what I've found is that when I regain weight, I tend to put more on than I started with.  I need to make a conscious effort to change.  No, I'm not perfect, but I need to work at being as perfect as I can be.  I cheated on Easter - I should've been better yesterday and stuck to eating my supplements and not let the craving for that delicious food do me in.  

Summer is getting closer... our calendar is filling up... there's going to be parties, celebrations, events and outings and I really need to remember my goals.  Each day I do well and stick to this plan - my goals will be more within reach, and each decision I make to ignore my plan is like a wasted opportunity. 

Had my Monster this morning and feeling good!!  (Oh, I needed some Speedway points, so I picked up another Monster...) Gotta do what you gotta do!!  I'm so close to 30 lbs lost.  Let's get this done!!! 

Okay - tomorrow I'll face the music and step on the scale. I realize I may be up from Saturday when I was 245.8 but if I'm super diligent today (which I will be!!) we will see.  Hope everyone has a great day!

<3 Katie