I'm still here......

Hey guys - 

Just thought I'd pop in and say hi.  So I'm still here. And by here, I mean way closer to one end of the scale than I'd like to be. :( 

Food, drinks, life...it's all gotten the best of me.  UGH.  But you know me....I don't give up.  I'm not feeling as awesome as I have in times before when I say that, but I'm still trying.  I've got the traditional excuse right now that we're coming up to the holidays.  And yes, it does make it harder.. I mean, I'm preparing to bake 8 dozen or so cookies --- and receiving that many as well at this cookie exchange I'm putting on.  lol  I was doing an Origami Owl party last year and the hostess was putting one on and it seemed like such a fun idea!! So I ran with it. 

I know I'm pushing my body way further than it wants to go. And I know it's struggling.  So I know I need to make some serious changes.  It's just hard - as anyone who's tried to lose weight knows.  But i'm determined to make 2015 my year.  No, I won't reach my ultimate goal - but I will lose weight in a healthy way.  I will consciously make good choices.  I will be able to walk up stairs with the laundry and not feel like I just ran from killer zombies for 2 miles.  I will make these changes for me and my family.  <3 

-- Katie

Day 3!

Just a quick note to let you all know that I'm still in this.  I don't know that any one is reading since I'm not posting on FB, but I'm still being accountable.  I wanted to weigh this morning, but I skipped it.  I kinda want to weigh just to submit a weight to try for prizes on my diet bet, so we'll see.  I should just wait til Saturday morning.  I think ketosis is kicking in today. I've got the headache and am feeling pretty good otherwise.  I had 4 pretzel squares this morning but that was it.  I logged it.  I'm sure I'm drinking to much diet pop/sugar free drinks, but it's getting me through right now.  I'll try to wean off those eventually too.  

Anyhow - that's all for now :)

Katie

Feeling pretty good!

Day one wasn't too bad.  I did really well up until around 6 p.m. and then I was starving.  Outside of my supplements I had some garlic stuffed olives - omgsooooogood

Today started off okay - I've had my strawberry cheesecake bar and water and tea.  Started the morning with a Diet Dr. Pepper which I think was a bad choice because I got super lightheaded and queasy - so I had 4 little pretzel squares.  I logged them - and I'm sure that in a couple days I'll be feeling much better. 

I had a pudding for a snack and will have another later and a shake for lunch.

I'll also have a shake for dinner. Maybe some veggies.  

I'm going to try not to weigh until Saturday morning.  Whenever I say that, I go and weigh tho, so we'll see. LOL Today I'm avoiding cupcakes at work -- I also avoided the amazingly deliciously smelling cookies that Steve made last night!  So all in all I'm doing well :) 

--Katie

Here we go again! VLCD part 2

So why'd I stop doing VLCD in the first place????

I was down 30 lbs in just over 2 months...  I was feeling good...  I got down to 240.2........ what tends to happen, is that I get close to something big -- in this case the 230s and I freak.  I can't explain why I freak, but I do. And I sabatoge myself.  I eat and give up. This makes no sense to me, but that's what happens.  

Soooo I gave up with the excuse that ketosis and the process of getting into it sucks...which, yes it does, but it also makes sense for burning fat.  I got frustrated that if I wanted to indulge at a party or something that it was going to take me 3 days or so to get back into ketosis.  Ummm...yeah Katie...that's a consequence.  Even this isn't a miracle -- you can't just eat whatever you want and then go back to dropping lbs the next day.  So here I am, commiting to at least 2 weeks on VLCD.  I had some supplements left and purchased some more.  

Yesterday I indulged with a steak (and roasted cauliflower! YUM!) and then a couple homemade cookies that Steve made and some ice cream for dessert.  I feel very focused this morning.  I've had tea, water and a BetterMd shake!

I've been having headaches a lot lately and I'm sure getting healthier will help.  Also - going to the Palace 2 weeks in a row and climbing all those stairs made me feel like I was dying.  I remember noticing the difference when I was 30 lbs lighter. I want that again.  

My restart scale number today was a whopping 279.4. I feel very gross about that.  But it will change. 

Back to Reality

Just got back from VEGAS and it was a lot of fun!  Had a great time with my mom but now it's back to the grind.  I know I probably should've waited til tomorrow to weigh, but I did it today.  Basically my all time high.  Higher than I started my diet bet.  I'm hopeful that with water today a lot will just fall off fast, but we'll see.  

Pretty disappointed in myself lately.  I get into those funks and just say screw it - I'm here - might as well not care.  Like when I had to buy a bigger size in the pants I bought from Target.  2 sizes bigger.  Sure, women's sizes suck and yes, you can wear a 10 in one style/brand/design and a 14 in another (shocker, those aren't MY sizes....I'd probably kill for those sizes....yep, I think I would....) but it still sucked majorly.  

Tomorrow I have to weigh in for my diet bet.  No way in hell will I make that (would need to lose 14 lbs overnight...) If I'm lucky I'll be down to at least what I started this round at.  As of today, for round 2 I need to lose 23 lbs. in a month.  Gonna be hard as hell, but I need to do it. I need to do it for me. I'm tired of feeling like this.  I want to see pics of myself and not be grossed out.  I want to be the girl my hubby married. :)  He deserves that and so do I!! 


Anywhooo - just a quick update for anyone reading...

--Katie

A little product review :)

So I haven't updated in a while, and I haven't been doing the best, but I see that changing in the near future.  Right now we've got a few things coming up and I'm not going to be crazy about trying to be 100% because it's just not going to happen.  We go to Buffalo this weekend and I'm super excited!  We'll be visiting the Texties and see the little bump of Mr. Man who will be here in a few months! I'm very excited for the girls to get to see eachother and play.  Last time we got together they were dancing to ghetto music in the streets of Chicago - they know how to have a good time!

The following week I leave for Las Vegas -- a girls trip for just me and my mom!! I'm so excited - it's gonna be great!  I'm sure we'll do our share of walking, and my trip probably won't be too over-indulgent, but I'm not holding my breath for my weigh in. I currently don't see myself making my first goal for the dietbetter competition.

Once I'm back from Vegas though - I want to really get things in gear. Even before I go, I want to start doing either 30 day shred or Bikini Body Mommy or something.  I canceled my gym membership so it's really all on me to do something.  I do have a bike now, so I gotta get on it and go!  I haven't rode a bike in forever. LOL

My cousin Jessica who sells itWorks! products sent me some samples of their Greens and I gave them a try today.

I tried the chews yesterday and even though I am not a blueberry fan, these were pretty good! I'd defintiely get them again.  They say each serving has the antioxidant strength of 20 cartons of blueberries (YUCK!) --- no way I could even eat one carton LOL 

As for the Greens on the Go ---  I first tried the berry just mixed with water.  It was definitely different --- but something that I can picture myself growing accustomed to.  The orange was harder for me to swallow...literally.. lol --- but I mixed some Mio with it and it was okay.  I placed an order today.  I'm starting off just with the Berry Greens.  I'll probably add the chews next month, but my wallet said keep it reasonable this time :D  

If you're interested in checking out what they have to offer, you can use the link I got when I placed my order and then I can earn some free wraps to try too!! Please and thank you haha http://KatherineWaetjen@sharewraps.com

I think I'll get my greens in about 1-2 weeks so it should be perfect for starting after Vegas! We'll see if I can meet my WL goal for this month still, but like I said, not holding my breath.  I should step on the scale and see where I am though. Using the last weight that I had in MFP from my auto-syncing scale (BLAH!) I'm down less than 2 lbs from the start of the competition. 15 days to lose approx 6.5 lbs. Doable yes.  Doable while going to Buffalo and Las Vegas?! Um I'll get back to you.  If I had a day or two after Vegas I'd feel more confident but I think I need to weigh in the day I get back. LOL  Yeah.... so it's okay though. I'll make my goal next month for sure. ;) And I'm not giving up just yet for this month.  I've got 9 days where I'll be in town and should be able to make picture perfect choices.  Yes, I know that requires me to actually make the good choices ;) But we'll see what we can do!!

--Katie

P.S. Jessica's direct site it www.jessicalansing.myitworks.com but use my link so I can get some free wraps if you're ordering soon :D Thanks!!

Day 2: Moving on down!!

Down 4.7 lbs.  Yes! I will take it!!

Yesterday struggles (yet, successes!) are brought to you by the letter T for tray of muffins brought in, C for the candy jar that was calling my name, and the A & I for the apple pie and ice cream at home.  But I had none.  Not even a bite of apple pie.

Steve - you're going down this month!!  I'm gonna beat you percentage-wise mwhaaahahhaha  

So I've got 28 days to lose 3.5 lbs (AND KEEP IT OFF) for round one for the competition!  

Breakfast was a planty shake (with no banana) and 1 cup of dry apple jacks cereal.  <-- yeah, i know that's not the best, but it's logged and I needed something haha  I've already drank a bunch of water and a cup of tea.  One thing that I didn't miss while I wasn't drinking all this water was the fact that I was up all night peeing!  That gets old fast!  Because I have all this left over pasta still, I'm doing it for lunch today.  It's really sad when you weigh stuff.  But enlightening to see how much you really overdo it when you're don't.  I'm having a good sized serving for lunch, but still not what I'd normally cram in my to-go container.  Makes you think twice when you put it on the food scale.  

I'm not totally sure on dinner, but it might just be a shake.  Maybe grill up some zuchinni.  I have to keep it low cal since my lunch is high. 

I'm feeling good --- pretty tired, but good.  I've got sinus/allergy issues happening right now so my throat is killing me.  Hopefully the tea will help soothe :)  

Welp, I hope everyone has a great day. Hopefully these storms won't be as bad as everyone is saying --- or at least I'll be home with my family when they hit. lol  

--Katie