Because I know you're all dying to know...

....yes! I lost! I lost 2.5 lbs this week! It doesn't totally redeem myself from my gain last week - but I will this week!!!! 

So a total of 6 lbs down so far....not bad!!! I'm so used to the fads that drop the lbs fast.......it's hard to see that I haven't lost 10 lbs yet....not gonna lie!  But I know this is the better way! 

I'm sure I'll update again on Monday -- wish me luck this weekend to make good choices :) 

--Katie

Happy Friday!!!

Great weigh in this morning! Down 1.2lbs for a total of 5.4lbs in the last 5 weeks. Slow and steady. It's easier said than done. I want to see huge losses. I want 5lb weeks, but I know with nursing, it's just not going to happen. So slow and steady it is! I've been using most of my weekly points on the weekend, and then staying within daily allowance all week. It works because I feel im splurging on the weekend but ready to refocus once monday is here! So I think I'll stick with that strategy for awhile :-) 

Feel like I'm cheating..

And maybe I am....

Ugh - it's been another semi rough week. At least I've mostly tracked!  But I still wasn't feeling confident for tomorrow's weigh in.  I need a reset and to see a loss tomorrow.  So, i'm turning to fruit day.  Day one of the sevendaysinhell ---errrr 7 day diet...The beginnings of mine and Kel's journey together LOL  BUT, I'm only doing fruit day. It's just to help me reset today, have a decent weigh in tomorrow and then try again to have an honestly successful WW week.

And I mean, technically I'm supposed to eat a lot of fruit with WW......sooooo i'm just skipping a few points... lol

But, I just ate a bowl of watermelon.  I have cuties, apples, raspberries, pineapple, melon and grapes.  I did pick up a progresso light veggie soup if I need it.  I've been scouring the blog and fb to try to find out how my previous fruit days have gone and I can't find anything!!!! I think only Kelly had done 7 day since we started this blog.  And FB isn't the most searchable.  Sooooo I'm hopeful that this is a good thing.  (Edit: One discouragine thing is that I did see Kelly's recap after her last fruit day and she didn't lose a lb....waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh)

Gonna have an activity/fitness challenge starting with some of the MayMoms starting on Sunday.  It'll be 4 or 6 weeks so that'll be great!  I need something to force me to get SOME activity in!!! I really need to see if my fitbit is working.  Steve will be getting a pedometer soon so we can do some of our own challenges too!!!  Soooo I get to have a Textie reunion next month.  Ms. Kelly told me I need to lose 8 lbs by then. {she's so strict}  So many challenges for me to accomplish :) Totally doable and I hope I do!!

Lots going on - lots to focus on - lots to do.  I just really need to start making a positive difference in my body.  I wanna feel good about myself and lose my belly....well butt, thighs, etc too. hahaha

-- Katie

Each day is a new chance to get it right

If you know me...or have read any of my previous entries....you know I struggle - pretty much constantly.  I have spent so many years letting food control me that it's hard to change.  Too many times over the years I've jumped on the quick fix train.  The promises, guarantees, sworn testimony that for "Only $XXX.xx you can lose 10 lbs in 10 days", "If you eat fruit one day, veggies the next, bananas and skim milk the next, only tomatoes and chicken the next........ and so on - you will lose!!!"  "If you take these pills, with this shake 3x a day you will be lose the weight so fast"  I'm so glad that it works for some people, but for me, all I've found is that {for me} it is wasted money, another dig at my self esteem, and more lbs that pile on afterwards. Don't get me wrong... I LOVE success stories!  I absolutely love reading reviews, seeing before and after pics, reading life changing stories --- but nothing I've tried previously has ever done anything for me mentally.  I still have the same mentality about food, I just, during those times of dieting, withold things that I want. I don't ever forget about taco bell, pizza, or my creamer with a splash of coffee.......and when I've done those "quick fixes" - I find that sure I'll hold back for a week, a month, maybe even 3 months like with the VLCD.......but then I'll stop and I'll go CRAZYOVERBOARD with those things I loved and missed.  That's how you go from 250 to 300 in a matter of months.

I'm probably rambling, but this is why I think that WW is going to be my ultimate success tool.  Will it take a while? Yes!  {A May Mommy shared her WW success of 65 lbs in a year! Woot!}  In my eyes, I failed last week. I let it ALLLLL go, alllll week long and I gained.  Does that surprise me? No.  Is it embarrassing - yes. But it happens.  This is all learning for me.  It's been a month - I could've been better.  But I'm learning. My weekend still wasn't amazing but yesterday was a totally logged day and I'm on my way for that today too.  My weekly points may be dwindling, but if I'm going to use them, I'd rather have them used in the beginning of the week anyway.

I haven't stepped on my home scale to get a
 feel for how I'm doing. Honestly, I'm still nervous.  I just need to use those nerves to keep me in check.  Today I have been on it.  I'm really doing good.  Only fruit for snacks and it's almost lunch time :) 
I hope everyone has a great day!!  

--Katie

P.S. Is it summer yet?!!!

Faced the music...

...and it wasn't pretty!!

After a week of being sick, not logging and not caring, the scale put me in my place. I was up 3.6 lbs this week! An embarrassing story because I like to overshare.... Yesterday I decided I would go to panera for a bagel and cream cheese. After I ordered that, I though ahhhh throw in a bear claw....oh yeah, sure I need something to drink so why not a frozen caramel. I had no intention of logging yesterday but when I did I was shocked! That trip to panera was my WHOLE DAYS WORTH OF POINTS!!!! 44 points without even thinking! Uhhhh lesson learned though. 

So today I am back on track. Still not feeling 100% but I'll get there. I'm following my points this week! No 44 pt meals! No absolute craziness. I'm going to be accountable and definitely see a loss next week. I'm shooting for 5 lbs.

The leader today had on the board "Failure is the key to success. Each mistake teaches us something." She said that to her, it was incomplete though. She added "if we are willing to learn from it."  That is 100% true. And 100% relevant to me especially this week. Thank you to Kelly and my May Moms who pushed me to go to my meeting today. I definitely needed it and it wound up being the perfect topic. I shared about my week and got teary eyed...but it felt good being honest about what I was feeling. 

Send me responsible eating vibes :) 

Xoxo

Katie

Miracles I tell you...

I totally thought I'd be up at least a pound. I should've been up. But miracles happen I guess! I'm glad I went to weigh in this morning because I did have another loss! If I keep it together this week maybe I'll see 10 lbs next week! 

We shall see!! 

So I'm still feeling awful. Sneezing, coughing, drained, just feel pitiful. 

Hoping this goes away soon!! The weather is warming up and I want to take advantage of it!!!  

Just wanted to post a quick update! 

Xoxox

Katie

ughhhhhhhhhhhh

Man - just when the weather starts getting nice, I start feeling like poo! 

Wednesday I ended up leaving work early and getting some rest -- just hoping that I would miraculously end up feeling better.  No such luck.  Since then I've just been hacking away.....trying to figure out whether to hold my chest, my head or cross my legs when I cough.  It's typically a combination of at least 2 of those.  

With feeling like crap, comes comfort eating.  You don't want to cook, put forth any effort, or eat your veggies....  So with that, I'm worried about the scale tomorrow.  I tossed around the idea of going to my meeting, but not weighing but I figure that won't really help anything.  So I'll weigh and again hope to maintain from last week.  We're not going out to dinner tonight - so I won't have to make the tough decisions on what to get or not get from the yummy Italian place.  I also canceled game night tomorrow so I don't think I'll bust into weekly points on day 1 like I normally do on Saturday.  lol 

I did great yesterday and I'll have another great day today.  I weighed on my home scale today and I *think* I'll be okay tomorrow.  I know this isn't an overnight thing, and it's not a quick fix.  I'm retraining my whole self.  I eventually need to figure out how to not comfort eat the bad foods - or at least not as many.  I'll get there - I'm sure I will.  

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

--Katie