A post to bring us into the weekend...

So I think I'm to the point where I realize that I have to stop putting so many expectations on myself.  When I get excited for something I jump into it and want it to happen right now...which is..eh, okay....but drastic changes are hard to stick with.  VLCD is great to help you drop the lbs fast.....and if you can commit to it, you will lose....it's obvious. If you're only consuming 600 cals a day, you will lose weight.  Is it healthy? Eh...probably not.  Is being obese healthy?...no, it's not.  So that's where you get your "which is the worse evil"  -- doing VLCD had me excited. I was pumped. I was ready to do it. But I kept putting so many expectations on myself. Deadlines for pounds and sizes.  Prizes...punishments...  The diet didn't help me mentally at all.  We are busy people.  Our weekends fill up so fast and we're typically always out and about. Whether on the go or with friends and family, I got to the point where I didn't want to sacrifice -- and no, it's not all about the food, but sometimes you just wanna have a wine cooler and chill. Is it necessary? No.  But I don't want to feel like I have to overindulge in anything when I have a slip - or a free day - or whatever you want to call it.  I still want to live life. 

When I put those expectations on myself, I tend to slip.  And as soon as I slip, I fall....hard.  That's my reality right now. I haven't weighed myself since June 1st and I don't intend to any time soon.  I've been eating and drinking poorly. Like really bad.  

I'm not going to commit to one thing or another right now.  I still have herbalife powder and I still have VLCD items.  I plan to use them up, just want to do it at a time where I can be consistent and get the most out of them.  I'm going to really try to not put deadlines on my health.  Allyson from 96.3 was talking about this the other day.  She did better when she stopped - and so what if she only lost a lb. She appreciated that lb. being gone.  We don't gain 100 lbs overnight.  We aren't going to lose it overnight either.  

I missed my deadline for cancelling Planet Fitness this month.  So I think I'm gonna try to get back into going. (!!!!) At least a couple days a week.  Steve has access to the gym at his work now and is going to work out during the week too - so we can do this together.  Health is such an important thing and I really need to prioritize that.  Fad diets, gimmicks, etc just aid in setting me up for failure.  

As nice as shortcuts are, it's better to take the tried and true scenic route and enjoy the journey.  It'll be worth it.

--Katie--

Motivation...where did you go????

Hmph!!! So I'm still kinda lost. I've been eating poorly and drinking regular pop too often too.  I weighed on June 1st and was still at 245 (mind you, that was after puking  after excessive drinking) but I was still okay with that.  BUT.... I feel fatter...I am fatter (and I don't mean anything bad by that...just honest..I see that my stomach is flabbier)...I'm more tired...and I just don't feel as good.

Saturday is a BBQ for my bro's graduation, dad's retirement, and celebrating my dad and stepmom moving to TN.  I'm doing Herbalife today.  I think I'm going to stick with that for a little while at least. (don't know how much I really have left....probably 2 weeks or so)  And then I still have my VLCD stuff.  I'm going to try to make the most of using the stuff I still have, while hopefully doing some good for my body.  

Claire and I both had great birthdays.  We had a big ole party at our house for Claire....a little after party for my bday, and then on my actual bday, Steve and I went to the casino.  Didn't win, but played The Walking Dead machine and had so much fun. Can't wait for that show to come back on --- oooh speaking of shows, Orange is the New Black is gonna be on Netflix SOON!!! Can't wait.  Gonna get sucked back into the TV :) 

Gosh - I was soooo close to 239 and I choked.  I don't know why I do that to myself.  But - it is in the past now, and I just need to move forward. Blogging about it helps.  I'm feeling more motivated as I type. :) Just threw away the 8 or so hershey kisses that were in my desk.  Logged in MFP. Gonna do this.  I did cancel my appt. with the "weight loss coach" for next week though since I haven't been doing VLCD or anything that would show any progress. I'll reschedule it later.  I gotta find the resistance band she gave me though and start doing those exercises.  Steve's gonna be starting his new job soon and will be using the gym at his work, so that'll be good motivation too.  Time to be done with the junk train that I had been on, and get back to good FOR GOOD! 

Things still going on this month that I'll need to be conscious of:

**BBQ
**May Mom get together???
**Dinner to celebrate my sister's 21st bday!!
**Grad Party
**Date Night
**Mackinac Vaca!! 

DANG!  That is a lot. BUT - July is looking pretty open.  LOL  I've gotta get back to wearing my Fitbit and make myself get 10K steps a day!  Okay, I'm gonna try to be more diligent about bugging you guys with my excessive blog posts :) 

<3 Katie <3