Motivation...where did you go????

Hmph!!! So I'm still kinda lost. I've been eating poorly and drinking regular pop too often too.  I weighed on June 1st and was still at 245 (mind you, that was after puking  after excessive drinking) but I was still okay with that.  BUT.... I feel fatter...I am fatter (and I don't mean anything bad by that...just honest..I see that my stomach is flabbier)...I'm more tired...and I just don't feel as good.

Saturday is a BBQ for my bro's graduation, dad's retirement, and celebrating my dad and stepmom moving to TN.  I'm doing Herbalife today.  I think I'm going to stick with that for a little while at least. (don't know how much I really have left....probably 2 weeks or so)  And then I still have my VLCD stuff.  I'm going to try to make the most of using the stuff I still have, while hopefully doing some good for my body.  

Claire and I both had great birthdays.  We had a big ole party at our house for Claire....a little after party for my bday, and then on my actual bday, Steve and I went to the casino.  Didn't win, but played The Walking Dead machine and had so much fun. Can't wait for that show to come back on --- oooh speaking of shows, Orange is the New Black is gonna be on Netflix SOON!!! Can't wait.  Gonna get sucked back into the TV :) 

Gosh - I was soooo close to 239 and I choked.  I don't know why I do that to myself.  But - it is in the past now, and I just need to move forward. Blogging about it helps.  I'm feeling more motivated as I type. :) Just threw away the 8 or so hershey kisses that were in my desk.  Logged in MFP. Gonna do this.  I did cancel my appt. with the "weight loss coach" for next week though since I haven't been doing VLCD or anything that would show any progress. I'll reschedule it later.  I gotta find the resistance band she gave me though and start doing those exercises.  Steve's gonna be starting his new job soon and will be using the gym at his work, so that'll be good motivation too.  Time to be done with the junk train that I had been on, and get back to good FOR GOOD! 

Things still going on this month that I'll need to be conscious of:

**BBQ
**May Mom get together???
**Dinner to celebrate my sister's 21st bday!!
**Grad Party
**Date Night
**Mackinac Vaca!! 

DANG!  That is a lot. BUT - July is looking pretty open.  LOL  I've gotta get back to wearing my Fitbit and make myself get 10K steps a day!  Okay, I'm gonna try to be more diligent about bugging you guys with my excessive blog posts :) 

<3 Katie <3