One for one!!!

Yes, let's start this week with a positive.  I woke up early and was at the gym by 4:30 -- did the elliptical for an hour and burned 673 calories.  I have already logged my food for the day and planned my calories wisely. 

Now for the bad news.  Bad eating, drinking and poor choices had gotten me back to my starting weight for the 4 week challenge.  Now I'm down to 2 weeks to go and I still need to lose 4% of my starting weight.  Self-sabatoge. I'm notorious for that.  I don't know why, but I am.  Sometimes I think it's just that I'm afraid of failing that I just do it (I know that doesn't really make sense....but I don't know how to explain it) -- other times, I think it's just an addiction to food.  Why does saying that sound so much more embarrassing than saying you're addicted to drinking or smoking?!  It seems like something you should easily be able to control....but then again, to a non-smoker, choosing to not smoke sounds easy too.  Why would you want to do something you know is bad - that will shorten your life - that can cause your family pain and grief.  You don't WANT to -- it's an addiction.  But it needs to stop.  It really does.  Listening/watching Extreme Weight Loss makes me really feel that I do have this addiction.  Sure I'm not 500 lbs, but even at my 263 --- I know that i have these tendancies.  And it needs to change.  And it's changing today.  <---- Yes, I know you've heard that before....

I need to be in control of my life.  I need to take that back.  One of these times, you're going to read my blog from day to day and be like "Whoa! She finally did it!!  :) After all these proclamations that she was going to be healthy, she really did it!!"  And I will feel damn good about myself on that day. 

This is going to be a great week.  I've got 3 more days this week that I'm going to be gymming in the AM.  This will be fantastic.

Picture theme for the day are inspiration pics.... I want to go further than all these pics, but this is a start :)

--Katie