Need to re-find my way

WOW - so it's been nearly a month since I've posted.  How crazy :( 

So to recap:
I did not make my DietBet goal
I have managed to regain pretty much everything that I had lost on VLCD
I am back up to my highest weight
I've gotten back into bad habits of junk food, pop, alcohol, etc.
I haven't logged anything

On August 31st I bit the bullet and stepped on the scale and it showed 270.  AGAIN. UGH.  

It sucks.  Unfortunately, I've just fallen into that pit where it's like I'm having such a hard time that it's hard to get out, get refocused, and not just continue that downward spiral.

I know I shouldn't say tomorrow, but tomorrow I will:
*Log in MFP --- Kelly...hold me accountable, please ;) 
*Start the day with a planty shake

I'm going to look through my cupboards tonight to see what supplements I still have left from HL and VLCD.  I need to use those up and hopefully use them as a springboard into weight loss again. I need to give myself a plan.

Because I'm a glutton for punishment - or just a dreamer at heart - I was looking at the diet better site today.  They have a 6 month program that starts tomorrow. It runs from Sept 9-March 8th.  It's broken up into rounds and is meant to keep you motivated the entire time.  Assuming that I'm 270 (prob more especially with clothes on) but assuming that's where I am, this would bring me down to 243 by March.  Now I know I can do that. I know I could be down to 243 before then.  But the challenge would be to get down there, and STAY DOWN THERE for the whole competition. That's obviously my issue.

Round 1 – 3%
Round 2 – 6% cumulative
Round 3 – 8% cumulative
Round 4 – 9% cumulative
Round 5 – 10% cumulative
Round 6– Maintain 10% cumulative

So I don't know.  I'm definitely tempted.  But I know I threw away the entry fee for the last competition.  

I will take it one day at a time and will achieve my 2 goals for tomorrow.  

Easy peasy.  

--Katie