So I was going to blog, and then I wasnt, and then here I am again... Thanks Cambria :)
First off, let's recap the weekend. I went to a WW meeting on Friday since I had the day off and was down 2 lbs. *hooray* That put me at an 8 lb total weight loss and brought me down to 291.8. I was hoping for a 2 lb weight loss this week, but I don't see that happening --- annnd I'm not sure if I'm going to make a meeting and weigh in. I think I'll try to go Thursday evening to a meeting, but I don't think I'll weigh in because I know it would be totally different than my morning weigh ins. So Friday - Monday were not great days for me. Looking back, I didn't really track much of anything those days. Easter was a free for all. Yesterday I started off good but then fell into chocolate and Mexican food....well not literally, but you get the point.
So today I've been in a funk. I've just been down on myself - appearance, the number on the scale, my slow loss with WW, etc. I'm not going to dwell on it, because I've already talked it out some with friends and am feeling a bit better.
It's a long, daunting road. It really is. When I can finally overcome the mental aspect of this I know that I will be so much better. It's just hard. I just need something to click in my brain. I'll keep plugging along until then :) I really should be losing more than I am -- and I know it's because I'm not 100% in the program...... 5 out of 7 days a week doesn't cut it. I have to be better. I have to. There's no {good} reason that I should be basically losing a pound a week.
People comment on my persistance and I wish they didn't have to. LOL I wish that I moved in a relatively steady downward direction on my weight tracker and I didn't have huge spikes that I have to redeem myself from. I don't want to have to constantly be "restarting" and recommitting. It's exhausting! It really is draining. It takes a huge toll on the confidence I do have...
Okay --- edit to above --- I think I may leave work to weigh in on Friday morning. It's not as close as I'd like it to be and I wouldn't be able to stay for the meeting, but at least I can be accountable for my week. I always forget you can go to different locations.
Welp, just had a clementine and only an hour left of work. I'll leave my update as is. Sorry it's not the cheeriest but it would've been a lot worse earlier. Thank goodness for May Mommas! haha
<3 Katie
I just started reading a book Better Than Before which is all about habits and it might really help you get past the mental block, and might help you to figure out how to tackle tings individually instead of looking at the whole. Either way doing something is better than nothing so you're at success in my book. ☺
ReplyDeleteThanks Lauren!! I'm gonna have to check out that book! Can't hurt!! :)
DeleteOne day at a time sweetie! You may be going a little slow to start but stick to it, you got this, I know it. You are such a smart, beautiful lady and you will get this. You just need to believe in yourself and try to avoid beating yourself up so much. one day at a time, steady wins the race (isn't that the way that saying goes?).
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