It's not a race

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jour·neyˈjərnē/
noun1.
an act of traveling from one place to another.
"she went on a long journey"

It's not a race that I'm on... it's a journey. It's not something to be rushed.  It's something to  take in the sights and appreciate where you've been, what you've seen, what you've learned along the way.  I have an idea of where I am going, but going with the flow and taking the turns as they come.  Weight Watchers has still been going well. I'm enjoying it!  It's really helped keep me moving in the right direction.  

I weighed in today and was up a pound.  I'm good with it.  I could make excuses and say that it's because I was wearing work clothes, or weighed at a different location, and a day early at that.... but I gained because of choices I made. The weekends are where things go crazy. It was Mother's Day weekend and yeah.... I enjoyed. LOL It's life.  Maybe I should, but I'm not willing to give up all the celebrations.  It's all good though.  I've been moving in the right direction. I've come a long way already.  In 2 months I'm down almost 14 lbs from WW.  That's nothing to complain about!!  

I've come so far from my heaviest too.  The first pic here was close to that point (28 lbs heavier).  I'm still not happy with how I look in pictures.  Mother's Day pics were still really hard for me to look at.  I just see myself as huge.  And then I'm like, how was I 30 lbs heavier?! UGH!  But even with that, at least I can say I'm not there anymore.  I'm not going back. I'll keep moving in the right direction - even if it's a half pound at a time.  I will reach my goals.  It may not be in a year...or two...or three..... but slowly but surely, I will get there.  

So with that, I keep going...keep moving...keep learning and I'm going to get there.

Ran into an old friend while weighing in today. Someone who's come SO FAR on her journey.  

A real inspiration :) 

I want to inspire one day! #Goals 

xoxo Katie

Throwing Weekends Away

I need to stop... For whatever reason, I can't seem to get a hold of my weekends.  I can have a perfect week and then I just give up on myself over the weekends.  Last week I was able to redeem my bad weekend and still wind up down a pound and a half, but I don't know if I'll be able to this week.  I'm going to try work hard and not let this feeling of disappointment and disgust with myself linger.  It's done...it's something I chose to do...I can't change the past now. I just need to accept it and get right back on track.  I'm just really feeling bad about myself.  This is the self-sabatoge I always run into!!  We had two birthday parties this weekend, but I strayed outside of that too. 


So obviously I didn't weigh today....I HAVE to weigh tomorrow just to log my weight for DietBet.  I obviously won't make the goal, but I'm hopeful that I can pull off one of the final rounds. I need to get to 254.1 .... I'm gonna try. I AM moving in the right direction - just need to pull my weekends together. 


So the positives:

• Since starting WW 6 weeks or so ago, I'm down 11.5 lbs.  
• From my highest weight, I'm down approx 32 lbs.
• I was able to wear a pair of jeans that still had tags on them from a year or two ago
• People are noticing
• I get more compliments
• When I'm eating good food and staying within my points, I feel good about myself
• I am learning to not let my trip ups, turn into quitting completely
• I have been making some really delicious meals
• I am learning to be proud of myself when I'm doing well

I am really going to try to not beat myself up too much about my slipping up. I do want to remember how disappointed and actually sad I feel with myself at this moment though.  I knew what I should've done and I chose what I knew was bad for me.  I want to remember this because I don't want to do this every weekend. I can't afford to do this every weekend.  Being so far over my weekly points will not allow for a loss for someone who doesn't work out....a LOT. 

I just feel so defeated by myself.  But I have a great day planned. I will kill it this week.  My goal is to not gain.  If I can bring back this week to maintain where I left off on Saturday, I will accept that. This is the point where I normally would snowball into eating whatever since I screwed up my weekend.  This is the point where before I would have started to give up on WW again.  That's not fair to myself or the program.  The program works.  I just need to fully commit.  I am human. I will screw up.  But I'm worth brushing it off and getting right back on the horse.  

I am worth it

Best of luck to all for the week!

xoxo
Katie