Throwing Weekends Away

I need to stop... For whatever reason, I can't seem to get a hold of my weekends.  I can have a perfect week and then I just give up on myself over the weekends.  Last week I was able to redeem my bad weekend and still wind up down a pound and a half, but I don't know if I'll be able to this week.  I'm going to try work hard and not let this feeling of disappointment and disgust with myself linger.  It's done...it's something I chose to do...I can't change the past now. I just need to accept it and get right back on track.  I'm just really feeling bad about myself.  This is the self-sabatoge I always run into!!  We had two birthday parties this weekend, but I strayed outside of that too. 


So obviously I didn't weigh today....I HAVE to weigh tomorrow just to log my weight for DietBet.  I obviously won't make the goal, but I'm hopeful that I can pull off one of the final rounds. I need to get to 254.1 .... I'm gonna try. I AM moving in the right direction - just need to pull my weekends together. 


So the positives:

• Since starting WW 6 weeks or so ago, I'm down 11.5 lbs.  
• From my highest weight, I'm down approx 32 lbs.
• I was able to wear a pair of jeans that still had tags on them from a year or two ago
• People are noticing
• I get more compliments
• When I'm eating good food and staying within my points, I feel good about myself
• I am learning to not let my trip ups, turn into quitting completely
• I have been making some really delicious meals
• I am learning to be proud of myself when I'm doing well

I am really going to try to not beat myself up too much about my slipping up. I do want to remember how disappointed and actually sad I feel with myself at this moment though.  I knew what I should've done and I chose what I knew was bad for me.  I want to remember this because I don't want to do this every weekend. I can't afford to do this every weekend.  Being so far over my weekly points will not allow for a loss for someone who doesn't work out....a LOT. 

I just feel so defeated by myself.  But I have a great day planned. I will kill it this week.  My goal is to not gain.  If I can bring back this week to maintain where I left off on Saturday, I will accept that. This is the point where I normally would snowball into eating whatever since I screwed up my weekend.  This is the point where before I would have started to give up on WW again.  That's not fair to myself or the program.  The program works.  I just need to fully commit.  I am human. I will screw up.  But I'm worth brushing it off and getting right back on the horse.  

I am worth it

Best of luck to all for the week!

xoxo
Katie