Setting Goals

Okay - so.... doing okay!  Getting on track.  Finding a love for tofu that I never knew I had --
ZERO points!! Hell yes!  Actually it's pretty good - and amazingly enough, Claire LOVES it.  Seriously, I'm fine with her getting her protein from there - just gotta work on finding more veggies she likes... #CarrotsAndEdamameForLife

Last Saturday (27th) I was back down.  Lost 5 lbs last week so it put me back in the game!!  I'm down 4.4 from my WW start this go around.  The weekend was a bit rocky, but stepping up this week and trying to really get another 2 lbs.  Slow and steady is OK - just reminding myself.  So I'm going to set a small goal.  I've been wanting my next tattoo for quite some time {aka forever} now.  I know what I want and where and yes, I could just go get it now....but I'm going to let that be a reward for me...a little something to say, "Yes!  You did it!"  -- so when I get to 20 lbs down from starting WW weight, I will get that.  15.6 to go.  So, I'm excited... I've gotta get my other touched up too...and maybe a daith piercing to help with migraines.. 20 lbs is worth all that, right?! Right!

Going to a cardio drumming class tonight.  I've been intrigued about them...looks like fun...probably less fun that I imagine, but it's all good.  I did a beachbody workout last night.  Nothing crazy, but got me moving.  Still haven't set aside "me time" for just meditating or anything, but I'll get there.  I just need to wake up earlier...like when my alarm goes off at 4:45 and not snoozing a few bunch of times...  maybe tomorrow!  

We've made it to Wednesday..have a good one!
xoxo
Katie

Let's Believe

Sometimes we lose the faith in ourselves.  We forget that we are capable...strong...powerful...

We set ourselves up to fail by not thinking that we can accomplish things that are possible.  I struggle with this all.the.time.  With weight loss, my goals just seem so far away.  Setting smaller goals just seems pointless because it's barely a dent in the big scheme of things.  I get trapped in that mindset of "Well this is never going to happen."  Of course I struggle with the self-confidence in other aspects of my life too, but weight loss, body image, and those kinds of things are the biggest part...I think! 

And the crazy thing is that I know the quote is true: 

"Whether you think you can or think you can't, you are right"

I KNOW this....I know the power of confidence.  I see confident people all the time and I'm just in awe. Like, seriously.  I think - this is an amazingly awesome person - and I envy that! I'm amazed that they can just not give 2 cares about what anyone thinks....that someone with a similar body shape to mine can be comfortable wearing something I never would....that people aren't afraid to take a chance... Now I'm not saying that I have zero confidence - I have some.  I have stepped out of my comfort zone a lot in recent years. I've grown.  I've took some chances. But I still lack a lot.  I need to figure out how to not hold myself back.  Positive affirmations...I don't know... SOMETHING!  Deep down inside I know I am capable.  I know that I can reach my goals.  I've got a long way to go, but I'll get there.  <3

Anyhow - enough of that.  I'm up today.  Last week I totally blew WW.  I sucked.  I used Kelly's vacation as a vacation for myself... it wasn't good.  So I'm up.  Owning it and moving forward.  Back to tracking.  We've got this BeachBody OnDemand subscription still so I think I'm going to try to commit to at least one of the workout programs.  

If anyone wants to join me in just some accountability even just via texting - let me know!  I know I can use it....just someone else to hold me accountable - make me check in with each day :) You know me...I hate letting people down and disappointing them.. Another lovely character flaw of myself - caring too much what other people think!!  But I'm doing this for me!  Just want to not cringe when I see pics of myself...to not be out of breath from climbing stairs...to not fear having to face certain challenges.  

I am strong... I am capable.. I will do it.. I believe in me!

If I say it enough, it'll become natural, right?!  Love ya guys! 

xoxo 

   Katie

Here we go again!!

Hellooooo 2018...

A new year..same pants size...and boy are they feeling tight today!!  So after falling of the WW wagon between Sept-ish and the new year, I have signed up for WW again but online this time.  This is more affordable and I am going to make it work.  I've got Steve & Kelly to hold me accountable -- and you know me - I can be very open about my struggles and issues with my weight, so I have all of you reading also!  So I gained everything that I had lost previously on WW, but still stayed away from my highest - so that was a plus!!  

I'm off to a good start this time around -- pretty sure this is time #4 on WW.  4th times a charm, right?! Yesterday, a co-worker (who also does the program) brought in muffins, cinnamon bread and more... She does this a lot... She has no problem avoiding that stuff, but it's HARD for me.  And then someone brought in Krispy Kreme Donuts -- which is even harder.  Donuts are a trigger.  I cannot eat just one.  Pretty sure it's not possible.  So I've managed to stay strong. Not even going to say "Well, I can have one - I'll just fit the points in" because I know that's a slippery slope for me.  I'm going to try to make it a point to get a "Blue Dot" every day this month.  You get that for staying close to your target points for the day.  

So I did well in 2017 for a while -- I did get down quite a bit.  I'm determined to find health this year.  I want a healthy body and healthy mind.  My anxiety has been really high lately.  I want to find ways to better control that.  To be mindful.  To feel at ease.  The part that bothers me is I know that the things I'm super anxious about and panic over are irrational.  So I need to try to train my mind to work differently I guess. I just get to feeling so suffocated.  So I'll work on it.  

Just going to keep trucking along and do what I can do!! Meal planning and prepping this week has been great.  I made this crustless eggless quiche and it is phenomenal.  I love it so much more than egg quiches.  Also made a lemon rice soup - which was super easy and super delicious!!  Just going to keep finding new recipes, trying new things, and PLANNING PLANNING PLANNING!  That is key for me.  Thanks for reading -- hope you have a fantastic day <3 

xoxo
Katie