Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Day 3!

Just a quick note to let you all know that I'm still in this.  I don't know that any one is reading since I'm not posting on FB, but I'm still being accountable.  I wanted to weigh this morning, but I skipped it.  I kinda want to weigh just to submit a weight to try for prizes on my diet bet, so we'll see.  I should just wait til Saturday morning.  I think ketosis is kicking in today. I've got the headache and am feeling pretty good otherwise.  I had 4 pretzel squares this morning but that was it.  I logged it.  I'm sure I'm drinking to much diet pop/sugar free drinks, but it's getting me through right now.  I'll try to wean off those eventually too.  

Anyhow - that's all for now :)

Katie

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Feeling pretty good!

Day one wasn't too bad.  I did really well up until around 6 p.m. and then I was starving.  Outside of my supplements I had some garlic stuffed olives - omgsooooogood

Today started off okay - I've had my strawberry cheesecake bar and water and tea.  Started the morning with a Diet Dr. Pepper which I think was a bad choice because I got super lightheaded and queasy - so I had 4 little pretzel squares.  I logged them - and I'm sure that in a couple days I'll be feeling much better. 

I had a pudding for a snack and will have another later and a shake for lunch.

I'll also have a shake for dinner. Maybe some veggies.  

I'm going to try not to weigh until Saturday morning.  Whenever I say that, I go and weigh tho, so we'll see. LOL Today I'm avoiding cupcakes at work -- I also avoided the amazingly deliciously smelling cookies that Steve made last night!  So all in all I'm doing well :) 

--Katie


Monday, October 20, 2014

Here we go again! VLCD part 2

So why'd I stop doing VLCD in the first place????

I was down 30 lbs in just over 2 months...  I was feeling good...  I got down to 240.2........ what tends to happen, is that I get close to something big -- in this case the 230s and I freak.  I can't explain why I freak, but I do. And I sabatoge myself.  I eat and give up. This makes no sense to me, but that's what happens.  

Soooo I gave up with the excuse that ketosis and the process of getting into it sucks...which, yes it does, but it also makes sense for burning fat.  I got frustrated that if I wanted to indulge at a party or something that it was going to take me 3 days or so to get back into ketosis.  Ummm...yeah Katie...that's a consequence.  Even this isn't a miracle -- you can't just eat whatever you want and then go back to dropping lbs the next day.  So here I am, commiting to at least 2 weeks on VLCD.  I had some supplements left and purchased some more.  

Yesterday I indulged with a steak (and roasted cauliflower! YUM!) and then a couple homemade cookies that Steve made and some ice cream for dessert.  I feel very focused this morning.  I've had tea, water and a BetterMd shake!

I've been having headaches a lot lately and I'm sure getting healthier will help.  Also - going to the Palace 2 weeks in a row and climbing all those stairs made me feel like I was dying.  I remember noticing the difference when I was 30 lbs lighter. I want that again.  

My restart scale number today was a whopping 279.4. I feel very gross about that.  But it will change. 



Thursday, October 9, 2014

Back to Reality

Just got back from VEGAS and it was a lot of fun!  Had a great time with my mom but now it's back to the grind.  I know I probably should've waited til tomorrow to weigh, but I did it today.  Basically my all time high.  Higher than I started my diet bet.  I'm hopeful that with water today a lot will just fall off fast, but we'll see.  

Pretty disappointed in myself lately.  I get into those funks and just say screw it - I'm here - might as well not care.  Like when I had to buy a bigger size in the pants I bought from Target.  2 sizes bigger.  Sure, women's sizes suck and yes, you can wear a 10 in one style/brand/design and a 14 in another (shocker, those aren't MY sizes....I'd probably kill for those sizes....yep, I think I would....) but it still sucked majorly.  

Tomorrow I have to weigh in for my diet bet.  No way in hell will I make that (would need to lose 14 lbs overnight...) If I'm lucky I'll be down to at least what I started this round at.  As of today, for round 2 I need to lose 23 lbs. in a month.  Gonna be hard as hell, but I need to do it. I need to do it for me. I'm tired of feeling like this.  I want to see pics of myself and not be grossed out.  I want to be the girl my hubby married. :)  He deserves that and so do I!! 


Anywhooo - just a quick update for anyone reading...

--Katie