I was down 30 lbs in just over 2 months... I was feeling good... I got down to 240.2........ what tends to happen, is that I get close to something big -- in this case the 230s and I freak. I can't explain why I freak, but I do. And I sabatoge myself. I eat and give up. This makes no sense to me, but that's what happens.
Soooo I gave up with the excuse that ketosis and the process of getting into it sucks...which, yes it does, but it also makes sense for burning fat. I got frustrated that if I wanted to indulge at a party or something that it was going to take me 3 days or so to get back into ketosis. Ummm...yeah Katie...that's a consequence. Even this isn't a miracle -- you can't just eat whatever you want and then go back to dropping lbs the next day. So here I am, commiting to at least 2 weeks on VLCD. I had some supplements left and purchased some more.
Yesterday I indulged with a steak (and roasted cauliflower! YUM!) and then a couple homemade cookies that Steve made and some ice cream for dessert. I feel very focused this morning. I've had tea, water and a BetterMd shake!
I've been having headaches a lot lately and I'm sure getting healthier will help. Also - going to the Palace 2 weeks in a row and climbing all those stairs made me feel like I was dying. I remember noticing the difference when I was 30 lbs lighter. I want that again.
My restart scale number today was a whopping 279.4. I feel very gross about that. But it will change.
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