Tuesday, January 19, 2016

I am confident....

... that I need to work on my confidence

*Sigh* I'm pretty positive I've written this post before.  I lack confidence not only in my ability to lose weight, but in pretty much every other aspect of my life.... from reading maps (yeah...), to picking the right movie, giving the right answer, to wearing the right thing.. it's just all overwhelming to me.  I freak out and worry so much about not doing something right - not succeeding - that I just sabotage myself and give up.
  
I know they say:
But I struggle with it!

I think the hardest thing for me is feeling lost as to where to begin for building confidence.  It seems like something you just have to DO, but it's like HOW?! I know for people who don't have issues with confidence, it seems crazy that someone can have so much self doubt, but how do you just start being confident?  Do you fake it til you make it? 
That's kinda all I can think of... Just pretend I'm crazy confident and then eventually I will be?! 

I want C to grow up an be confident so I really need to work on this myself.  I don't want her to be the girl constantly saying "I can't" or backing out on things quietly because she doesn't believe in herself. I want her to follow every single one of her dreams - even those that seem unreachable.... although I'm pretty sure her biggest dream so far is having a house full of cats to love and take care of. Gotta love her!!!  Time to focus on believing in myself and figuring out what I'm all about --- because honestly I don't know.  


Goals for this week (I was off work yesterday, so my week is starting today...) 
  • Track all food/drinks
  • Stay within cal goal
  • Get to the gym at least 1x
Right now my LoseIt! app shows that I can still meet my goal of 199 by 12/31/16........ I just need to start losing or else I'm not going to be able to.  I haven't been doing anything to get me there, so hopefully if I change things around starting today --- I will do it!! 

--Katie


2 comments:

  1. Those are great goals for the week! I've been making it a goal to do squats before every shower while I wait for the water to warm up. So far, so good.

    As far as being confident, I feel like it started with getting rid of any sources of negativity (things that encouraged me to feel bad, even my own attitude at times) and increasing positive self-talk and surrounding myself with things that boost my confidence. My counselor in college encouraged me to post positive statements (e.g., "You deserve nothing but the best," "You are beautiful!" Etc.) around the house in random places. That was great! With positive self-talk includes stopping the negative self-talk. Don't even worry about whether you've said the same thing in a blog post before, just focus on where you're currently at!

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