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When we lose our focus, we lose sight of what we want - why we started in the first place.

I feel like I have been losing my focus for the past few weeks.  I haven't been tracking really at all.  I've missed a few weigh ins and meetings.  I have not been giving it nearly 100%.  It shows in the way I feel about myself.  We went camping over the weekend and I didn't think I was THAT bad.  I weighed this morning just to see what I needed to do for the week, and the scale proved me wrong.  I did do THAT BAD.  It was very disappointing, and while I know part of it is the lack of water, I know a lot of it was poor choices - and not just from the weekend but for the past weeks.  It definitely catches up to you.

So all I can do is get back on track.  I'm loading up on water and watermelon today.  I am still glad that I'm doing WW because if I weren't,  I know I'd be up to my highest again.  With a change of schedule - just trying to get into a routine - plus all the adventures of summer, it's hard.  It seems like there's always a BBQ coming up, always a work party or just snacks, always something out of the norm... 

Need to focus on the positives...
       + Still down ~ 27 lbs (today) from my highest 
       + Down 13+ from WW
       + When I'm eating well, I feel better physically and mentally
       + I can see the difference when I do side by sides

Need to focus on my WHY
      *  I want to feel good about myself
      *  I want to have more confidence
      *  I {obviously} want to not look/feel HUGE
      *  I want to be able to wear cute clothes
      *  I want to have a 1 as the first digit of my weight
     
Of course there's more, but this is the gist.  I just want to look and feel better about myself!  I know I've done pretty good so far, but I'm slipping. And I can't keep going that direction.  In two years I've lost 30 lbs.  Since January, I'm down almost 17.  I just have a lot of work to do still. It's overwhelming at times.  I know what needs to be done.  But even when you have all the pieces in front of you - and a set of instructions - sometimes it still feels like you're putting together a piece of furniture from Ikea.  

I know I'll get there - I wish it was faster... and I wish it was easier... but I just need to remember what I want - no matter the reason.  Anyhow - I just know it had been a while since I posted anything, so I figured, might as well today since I was bumming a bit.  

xoxo
Katie