A lot can happen in two weeks...

...and it's not always good. So July 1st was my last weigh in for weight watchers.  That was of course a weekend of "holiday eating" - BBQs, cheesecakes, etc...and oh..yeah... no tracking. [wah wah wah] Other than Tuesday of this week, I have not fully tracked a day since then!  And boy oh boy did it show when I stepped on the scale this morning.  This is the point where I want to quit WW.  Not because I think it doesn't work... not because of the cost (even though I'll use that as an excuse, and I DO think it's overpriced) but because I'm embarrassed to go to another meeting and be up so much.  I'm up 8 lbs in 2 weeks as of this morning.  Granted, I'm hoping some of it falls off quickly, but still!!!! WTH. Why do I do this to myself???? 

I do not want to go to a meeting on Saturday, but I will.  I'm so embarrassed to step on that scale and see my progress deteriorated.  I do know, though, if I quit...if I stop going to meetings...if I say it's too expensive to stick with -- I will be back up to 300.  If I gain 8 lbs in 2 weeks, I know it would happen.  And it would happen fast.  You just get in that down, depressed mood and it snowballs.  So I'm not going to let that happen this time.  I'm not waiting for Monday.  I'm tracking today.  I will stay within my points.  Next week will be challenging.  I already know that I'll be a bit emotional and then we have a vacation.  

So am I down 35 lbs still?  No.  But I AM down.  I am still down 25.  25 lbs is a lot.  It's good.  I will lose that 10 again and then more.  I will not let myself fall into the same hole that I always do.  It's so hard.  I haven't trained myself to love the good for me food - and I wish I could dislike all the bad food......I wish I would want to exercise or work out.... 

Hopefully one day I crave kale, hate potato chips, and feel empty without a workout.....  one day.... lol

But today I will track.  Track everything.  I will be honest with myself. I will be good to myself.  I will not hide behind my embarrassment or disappointment with myself.  I will move forward.  

xoxo
Katie