What the #$!@

Ugh....I lost my mojo...my spark...my something!!! Someone find it!  Just for the past two days, but still... I need to snap out of it.  Tuesday I had cardio drumming.  Rocked it out. Came home, did a workout.  Down on the scale the next day....annnnnnd BOOM...gone.  Someone had brought in bakery donuts so I had that, and then the evening was just filled with snacking.  Steve was out so I went to bed early without doing a workout.  Was just feeling off and tired.  Yesterday I was out so didn't get a workout in.  So now I really need to catch up this weekend.  Need to get my eating back in check and get these workouts in.  So we've got Friday, Saturday and Sunday and I need to get 4 workouts in.  

This is where I can see it easily turning into the old ways.  Just slowly stop weighing, start eating anything and everything, stop exercising.....it's been a vicious circle for years. I do amazingly well for a minute (never this long) and then it all falls apart.  Normally this is where I disappear from blogging and "secretly" stuff my face with carbs and disappointment.  I need to remind myself, it's only been 2 days.  Do I want to workout?  NO!  Will I feel better after?  Eh, maybe? Part of me not wanting to workout these past couple days is that my knees and my back have been hurting.  So that is discouraging when it comes to thinking about jumping around, lunges, etc...  But not doing those things isn't going to help.  It's just something I need to do.

So I need to refocus. I needed to put it out there that by Monday I will have caught up on these 4 workouts. That means at least one day needs to be a double.  I think tonight I will make a chicken piccata dish.  I need to make sure I really get a good plan in place for next week.  I had a half-assed meal plan that I put together Monday for this week.  It really wasn't all that. I need to do it how I started off. Meals prepped and put in containers. Easy to grab and go. Plan every meal and every snack.  Really have everything written out.  

We've got just over 75 days until our 10 year anniversary trip to Mexico.  Will I be where I wanted to be body-wise? Nope!  But I can make sure that I am not where I was 2 months ago.  I can push myself further towards my goals.  I can keep going and working on building my confidence...that thing I constantly struggle with.  Confidence and anxiety -- if I could sort those two things out I would be golden!!! I'll get there...

So here's to working out tonight... let's get back on track...

Just keepin' it real for you guys..this is me!

xoxo 
Katie