Orientation - check!

Tonight was orientation for my weight management program that I'll be doing through a local hospital. It went really well. The dietician and exercise physiologists were super nice and I just got a really good feeling being there. There were about 8 other people there - all different sizes and I know we all have different goals. When they were talking about the different plans - one girl was very adamant that she was NOT doing a supplement only plan. That's good for her but I know me and I am going to need that structure. 

So weigh in and measurements was depressing as I knew it would be - but I didn't let it get me down. I'm used to weighing first thing in the morning as naked as can be...after peeing of course. Instead it was early evening, jeans and a sweater -- and shoes. Weighed in at 275 --- soooo heavy. Can't believe I've gotten here. Just months ago I was 235 or so. It's amazing what shit food does to you. 

So my homework is to track at least 3 days of everything I eat and drink. There's a form they gave us but it has you track the time, where you are, mood etc. I'll start that tomorrow. Of course I could do everything perfectly - and  I'm sure I'll be making better choices - but I do want to give accurate responses so they have a good idea of where my struggles are. 

I'm meeting with the dietician on Tuesday and am excited to kick things off. I'm going to do the Protien Power plan which is all supplements -- they have bars, shakes, soups, puddings etc but it's a very low calorie diet so I'll be taking on about 600-800 calories per day most likely. I'll be having frequent blood tests and follow ups so no worries, it's safe!! Medically supervised people!! :) with this diet your body goes into ketosis and starts burning stored fat -- and it will actually be a natural appetite suppressant after the first week. First week will prob be a little struggle but I'm ready! I want to be one of those out of the norm success stories. I want to be an inspiration!! 

-- Katie

Getting Impatient and excited

I'm going a little crazy over here. Wish I had some information on what this program that I'll be starting entails.  All I've been doing is googling and guessing.  From what I'm seeing, it looks like Henry Ford utilizes the HMR Products -- but I don't know if I'll be doing 5 shakes a day, 3 shakes and veggies and fruits, or what --- I was hoping that I would've gotten an information packet by now, but I haven't.  So I just printed off the questionairre that I had to fill out and did that so I at least have that. I also have the sign off from my Dr.  I've been reading stories written by people and I'm super excited. I'm of course nervous to fail, and I see how easy it would be to do so - just becasue obviously if you go back to your old ways you're gonna put it back on.

I need to do this and I want to do this.  The idea that I could possibly be 100 lbs lighter in 6 months is unfathomable.  Reading people's successes who have gone from where I'm at to a size 4 and a medium shirt is unreal. I honestly cannot imagine and don't expect to ever be a size 4 - that just seems insane. lol When I was filling out the questionairre it asked how much I weighed at age 18. Um, I honestly have no idea.  I know in college I did put weight on, and I remember being 150/160 for some time.....200 or so when we got married. I remember being 230ish when I got pregnant. I don't remember being in a pants size smaller than a 12 - ever - I only remember large shirts - and I really remember not having any fashion sense. LOL  I want a do-over.  I want to feel good and have a second chance and dressing nicely.  Once I get into 18's I'll have a lot of clothes to wear.  I'll be glad to pass those on to goodwill after I shrink out of them too though.  It'll be nice to get rid of the tubs of clothes in my basement.

Maybe I'll be surprised with info in my mailbox tonight...not holding my breath -- but Thursday isn't toooo far away I guess.  Hope I can get started right away!!

Ready for change

Of course that means that I need to put forth some effort :-/

I debated about blogging about this yet, but I'm really excited for it, so I'm going to...  

I've got an appointment/orientation scheduled for Thursday of next week with Henry Ford hospital. They have a weight management program which I plan on participating in.  I've sent the referral form for my doctor to sign off on, and am (im)patiently waiting for my info to come in the mail.  It sounds like it will be a VLCD (very low cal diet) utilizing shakes/meal replacement bars/supplements but under the care of doctors, dieticians and professional fitness people.  I think that having the accountability to others - professionals - will be the saving grace for me.  I need to do this.  I know I do and I'm excited to see the results. I'm hoping that my dr doesn't have any problem with me participating - and talking to a trainer and dietician will be great and I'll have guidance on what I need to do.  

I've done shakes and stuff before so I'm not worried about that.  I'm sure the first week on vlcd will be hell just because I've not been doing great on my own lately but I'm sure I'll start feeling better fast!  I think next week I might do strict HL just to get me ready.  I'm hoping it moves quickly after orientation.  PS I really hoping some reading materials show up in the mail today. 

PPS - missing my WL buddy Kelly <3

--Katie

Annnnnnnnnd I'm done

I'm out.  I quit.  I'm waving my white flag.  I also haven't lost a fucking pound.  I feel horrible. 

I gave it my all for 4 days, and I just can't do it anymore.  There's a reason why you shouldn't do these crash diets, and I stupidly put those reasons aside in an attempt to look a little better in a swimsuit.

So, back to healthy, sensible eating...focusing on mainly whole, plant based foods. That is, until we arrive in Dominican, then all bets are off!!!!


Kelly

Day 4: Mother $%&@ing bananas and yogurt

just a warning, i'm pissed off today.  I have nothing against bananas, nor do i dislike yogurt. But eating those 2 items, and those 2 items alone, really fucking piss.  me.  off.  I'm not happy.  I'm dreaming about all of the other foods i could have today.  Like a grilled cheese sandwich, some pizza, a bagel (thanks a lot for that thought KATIE), popcorn, spaghetti, a nice cheese and cracker layout. 


I'M CRACKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got a message from justin asking if there was dinner tonight or just bananas and yogurt.  JUST BANANAS AND YOGURT! Fuck this.

That's all i've got in me today.  Never fucking doing this stupid ass diet again.  

Kelly
ps. all those yogurts taste like the exact same fucking thing. "Black forest cake" my ass. 

You've got Day 4 Kelly!!!!

Cheering Textie and Mr. Textie on today --- I know banana and milk/yogurt day is a tough one for her, but she's got it!! I'm so proud of her for sticking with this!!

Yesterday was a bad day...a real bad day...I was in a funk all day, but today is starting off better!  

Today I've got my day logged in MFP already and had my shake and am drinking my tea as I type. Need to go grocery shopping and do some dinner time meal planning soon though.  Tonight we're just doing some chicken breast tenderloins and some veggies I think.  

--Katie

Day 3: Fruit and Vegetables

Still not down any weight, but not giving up! Started my morning with leftover cauliflower puree and veggies.  Snacked on fruit most of the morning, then made a great salad for lunch! I pureed an avocado with some mango and 1/4 of an onion.  Added a little lime juice and salt and poured it on top of a big plate of arugula with some cucumber.  OMG! It was heavenly! It will be the perfect lunch when summer finally decides to show up! 

I DID cheat a little and had a few pistachios during a moment of weakness, but that's it.

Dinner tonight is going to be spaghetti squash "ramen style" with broccoli! I'm excited...well, as excited as you can be about squash. 

Tomorrow is hell day.  Bananas and Yogurt.  It's the worst.  The first few hours of the day, you're all "yeah this is easy! i love bananas! i love yogurt!"  Then 3-4pm hits and you feel.  like.  shit.  but let's not worry about that right now!


-Kelly

Day 2: vegetables

Fruit day went better than expected, EXCEPT I wasn't even down a pound this morning. I was fucking pissed off a little discouraged, but I am staying strong today! 

Day 2 is all veggies.  Raw or cooked.  I roasted 2 eggplants this morning (pierce each one 6 or so times, rub a little oil on the skin, and put on a foil lined baking sheet at 400 degrees for 40ish minutes) and pureed the inside with some garlic.  Dipped carrots and red pepper strips in it while still warm.  YUM! 

So on day 2, you are allowed to indulge in a baked potato.  I normally save it for dinner, but i'm taking a different strategy this time and having it for lunch.  Planning on having veggies over a cauliflower puree for dinner.
 
I'm focusing on drinking A LOT of herbal and green tea today.  I did feel a little parched during the night, so I'm guessing I didn't drink enough yesterday.  Other than that, I'm feeling good today!

Hubs isn't feeling quite as good as I am, but he's hanging in there (he is also down 3lbs today, despite having 2 beers and 1 1/2 martinis yesterday.  WTF??? I hate him).

-Kelly

7-day-diet

So we arrive in Domincan 1 week from tomorrow.  I feel frumpy, grumpy, and blah.  I never thought I would say this, but I'm going to do the 7-day-diet (well, just 6 days).  This is the original diet that brought me and Katie together.  It sucks, but it helps get back in control.  Here's the link if anyone wants to join me.  I don't do day 7 because a. i'll be in the car and b. I refuse to eat cabbage soup all day.

7 Day Diet

I just started fruit day this morning, and desperately need to get to the store to buy more (this diet works out much better if you plan for it, and not just decide in the morning that you are doing it). I'm chugging down green tea, and so far have had an apple and 2 "cuties."  

Disclaimer: I hate these types of crash diets.  I really do.  I don't recommend doing them unless you have to be in a swimsuit or really need a reset to gain some control.  This one isn't as bad as most.  You can technically eat as much as you want, and besides "yogurt and banana day," it's all fruits and veggies, some days lean protein, so I don't feel as bad doing it.  

So here we go.  I'm not telling all of you how much I weigh, but what the hell, here's some starting pics. And I'll update with weight loss numbers as they happen.  I'm doing this not so much for the number on the scale, but to FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF! 

-Kelly

ps. I allow myself wine or clear alcohol in the evening because come on.  Let's be serious now.

TGIF!!!

::Pats myself on the back::

Yesterday was a fantastic day.  

I logged. I blogged. I avoided bad. I worked out. 

I made myself proud.  I haven't done that in a while.  No secrets yesterday.  I skipped out on the doughnuts, chocolates, & snack mix at work!  Not even a mini kit kat bar (or 3).  I stayed under calories and did day 3 of the BBM workouts.  I wouldn't say I gave it quite 100% but I was dying. Super sore today. I am SOO looking forward to our weekend.  Time with family and friends - hanging with other adults Saturday night and Sunday is...wait for it....waaaaaiiiiiit for it:

I know you're all probably jealous ;) And you should be. We're gonna have a blast.  :) I'll have to really try to keep my eating under control, but I'm in a good place right now. I'm feeling decently good about myself :) 

Have a great day folks 

:) Katie

The scale sucked me in yesterday...

I swear it was calling my name.  So I suck at not weighing but at least my weight was down.  I haven't been perfect, but at least I'm moving in the right direction.  Today will be perfect -- that's the plan.  I've already sworn Kelly to bugging me non stop today to make sure I don't have any doughnuts today.  Got an email today from one of the girls here: We brought in doughnuts - lots and lots.  Ummmm this whole week it's been cookies, cakes, cupcakes and now doughnuts?! Seriously people.  STOP.

To just reinforce to myself how bad doughnuts are, I look did a little google search.  Lots of reinforcing information on this site { http://www.livestrong.com/article/471877-health-effects-of-doughnuts/ } including this:

Weight Gain

Even a single doughnut a day can lead to significant weight gain over time. A Krispy Kreme raspberry-filled jam doughnut contains 300 calories, while a chocolate iced doughnut contains 350 calories. According to website Family Doctor, 3,500 calories equal 1 lb. If you add a doughnut a day to your regular diet and don’t exercise the calories off or cut down on calories elsewhere, you will gain about one extra pound every 10 days.

 So yesterday as tired as I was and wanting to make every excuse in the book, I sucked it up and worked out.  I felt good after. I need to remember that feeling.  I went downstairs after putting C to bed and did day two of the BBM workouts.  (Bikini Body Mommy -- check it out on youtube)  The proof:

Tonight I'm gonna try to get in Day 3.  I've also just logged my day in MFP.  Gonna stick to it.. Remind me of this about 1:00 p.m. today, mmkay? :) Had my HL shake, and tea and I'm full.  I made Dr. Oz's vegetable broth last night --- I'm going to have some of that with my lunch and some with dinner. I figure it can't hurt.  I looked at his 2 week rapid weight loss plan, but we have plans already for the weekends and it'd be tough to do 100% so I figure I'll just keep doing what I'm doing (only better) and just try adding the broth.  

Okay, time to work.  P.S. I need to really shrink myself because the jeans that fit me are getting worn and developing holes and not in the fashionable sense.....  lol  I have tons of jeans in the next size smaller, but even when I was 30 lbs lighter they didnt' fit, so I really need to figure something out!! 

--Katie

Stupid Groundhog...

JK - he gets such a bad rap. Welp, we're into February!  I'm so over this weather though.  The cold, dreary, dark, yucky days can really go away any time now.  I do think it affects my mood for sure.  I need sunshine....and a little warmth never hurt anyone either!

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed in myself.  I wasted January away and gained again.  Saw 2-7-0 and wanted to puke.  I really need to figure out how to see something so disappointing and turn it into fuel to move forward and make progress.  I'm soooo freakin good - like amazing - at making one mistake, or seeing a number like 270 and saying F it - what does it matter if I make a few more bad choices today. There's always tomorrow, right? Welp, one day there won't be a tomorrow.  Especially if I keep up these bad habits.  I also need to learn to see other's successes as motivation...right now I'm at a tough point where when I see others succeeding, its a big slap in the face reminder that I've failed.  I've lost some weight before. I can do this. Right??  It's also hard that I'm so heavy and that very very few people I know in real life are in the same boat.  I know that no matter where you are, we all have struggles, but it's harder to relate for me.

BUT, I know that people - even those heavier than me - have chosen for themselves to make a change.  They've stuck with it, lost 100's of pounds and yes, they still struggle, but they're doing it.  I don't know these people in person, but seeing their facebook pages or blogs is really inspiring.  Kelly is one IRL friend though who I'm super proud of.  She has crazy determination and it was a huge thing, seeing her get under 200!  My sister in law is also super inspirational.  These girls have dedication and drive that I have never had.  I don't know how they do it!!  But I need to learn!!! :) 

So plans for today:

• Throw away the leftover cheese bread I had in the fridge at work (DONE!)
• Stick with my MFP diary (yes, I am having leftover thai because I can't stand to throw the money away) 
• Go to the gym tonight
• Avoid any chocolate, candy and goodies that these evil people at work try to tempt me with (JUST HEARD THERE ARE CUPCAKES - damn them LOL) 
• WATER WATER WATER

So my goal is to not weigh in until Saturday morning.  I don't know where I am right now but I'm sure it's not good.  Hopefully by Saturday I'll be back down to 265 -- my starting weight at the beginning of the year.

<3 Katie <3