Feeling like a mess

So yesterday I went all day with a bad migraine at work.  I put my headphones in and turned the music super low just so people wouldn't bother me.  By midday, I was feeling sick to my stomach from the headache.  Meds weren't helping, diet pop didn't help... I was miserable.  I wound up having food for dinner last night and that actually did help.  I had a chicken shwarma wrap and a grape leaf - and it was amazing.  

I lost sleep over this last night.  Of course now we're coming up to a weekend.  We're going out to my mother in law's house on Sunday and BBQ'ing or something.  So I kept thinking - okay - so now what do I do. Do I just go back to VLCD and totally skip out (or hope I skip out) on anything mother's day or do I use up more of my HL since it's still doing something, using up supplements I have, and still allows me some real food since I'm not going into ketosis.... Ughhhhh this is so freaking hard.  I wish we never had plans, but we're always doing something....The next two months that have difficult points...

May
Mother's Day BBQ
Date night
Lady Gaga Concert
Memorial Day Weekend
Claire's Bday -- I really want a cupcake at least

June
My Bday
Grad/Retirement/Moving Party BBQ
Father's Day
Date night with dinner reservations
Vacation 

I'm already doing HL today so I feel like I should just keep that up through Sunday.  I feel like I can stick with Monday the 12th through Claire's bday.  Hopefully I'm feeling so f'n good by then that I say, cupcake? who needs a cupcake?!  It's gonna be freaking hard still. This is the hardest diet/eating plan I've ever ever done.  It's mentally taking a toll on me....but any diet/eating plan does.  I feel like I'm letting people down...and myself... I don't know.  

Blah.  

No sense to me typing any more though -- I don't really have anything useful to say.  But on a good note, it's Friday! Now if it could just be 4:00.....

--Katie