The road twists and turns

It's true that the shortest distance between two points is a straight line.  If my road to weight loss and health followed that path, I'd be looking soooooo good right now.  Instead, I tend to take the curvy, windy, roller-coaster path of a ride and keep things interesting.  

So I've stopped the VLCD.  It wound up being too much mentally with too little support -- not from my friends/family, but the program in general. While I need structure, I think I also need to be secluded away from everything except people doing exactly the same thing. haha  Okay, so that's not realistic, but I felt like I was missing out a lot and it just wasn't working mentally for me.  I do think I may do another week of supplements only (maybe add some veggies) but we'll see.  Otherwise I want to use them for breakfasts and lunches at least.  

Kinda feeling a little down in the dumps.  Just a lack of confidence in my ability to accomplish anything.  For years and years I've been trying to lose weight. I've never really succeeded.  When I start thinking about that too much, it's depressing.  All the failed attempts just seem to make the next try that much harder.  I need more confidence.  That's something I've lacked all my life though I think.  So I'm not sure where you get that... LOL  Is there an easy button or something?  Seriously, though, does anyone have tips or books for boosting confidence?  For other people, I know they're just like "Know you're beautiful, you can do anything, blah blah blah....." but HOW do you come to that realization?  How do you learn confidence? Not just with weight and appearance, but everything? 

I'm down to less than 2 months to Vegas.  I want to set the goal now to be down to 265.  It's a big goal --- about 26 lbs.......... but doable with where I am now.  I'm charging my fitbit as we speak.  I want to start getting my 10K steps in (which is a ton for me) and then I need to start doing the zumba game or a workout dvd or something at least a few nights a week.  I'm going to get back to logging and keeping things ~1200 cals a day... And I think I'll at least mostly cut out alcohol and regular pop. C'mon Katie - let's get back to thinking that drinking your calories is stupid.  One good thing is that I'm really pizza'd out.  

Short work week this week. That's nice!!! Sunday we'll be going to the lake so I'm super excited for that.  Hopefully the sun is shining and I can get a tan. My legs are so ghostly white.  Hope everyone has a good day! xoxo

--Katie