9/27/16

It's been a few days since I've updated... 

Saturday's WI wasn't as good as it should've been.  My rough week showed, BUT I was down. I was down 0.2 lbs. I took it with a big smile on my face knowing that I was kind of expecting a gain. Saturday I was giving myself to splurge a little, but planned to be back on Sunday.... That didn't happen. And even yesterday I struggled to get back to the right mindframe.  But I'm ready to be 100% good today.  Tracking. Staying within points. All of that. I deserve that. 

I am down a total of 7.1 lbs though.  I'm hoping I am able to lose another lb or so this week.  I'm going to try!!  Going to get some vitamins in me too today -- feel like I may be getting a little cold, but hopefully it's just the change in the weather.  It's finally feeling like fall!  I love it!!!   I just want to feel cute in clothes.  Is that bad that some of the time that reasoning comes before "being healthy" in my head?  It is kind of a shame that in our society that's more of what's important half the time.  And yes, they have cute "bigger" clothes, but it's like that stuff is never on sale.  They prey on you because you don't have choices.  I love Torrid, but honestly, it kills me to spend $40 on each shirt (tanks even!), $80 on pants/jeans.... It's just like, c'mon!! 

I don't really have anything else to report. lol  Hope everyone has a good week!!

xoxo

Katie

Think Positive

Think Positive!  
       I tend to struggle with this.  I don't know when I became so negative.  And it's only somewhat negative. With some things I'm just still super optimistic and positive.  It's really weird. I dunno!  Things that make you go hmmm... lol I need to consciously put forth more effort on being positive though, so I'm going to try!

I have so much in my life to be thankful for and happy about.  I've got a great husband, and amazing little girl and super family and friends.  Of course I don't live next door to my TFF...but who knows, maybe one day :) LOL I do want to get mine and Kel's families together again because I think the girls will have a blast - even moreso now because they're older.  I'd just love to listen to their conversations about cats. haha

WW is going well.  I weighed this morning and I'm back down to about where I was on Saturday, so that's awesome. I thought today was Thursday, but Kelly reminded me that it's not (thanks A LOT!) but that means I have even more time to get down more before my meeting on Saturday.  If I could lose 3 lbs that would be amazing.  Today a girl here at work brought in "chips and cheese" for people this afternoon.  I did log it, but I may just pass.  It's kinda a waste of points and doesn't leave me much wiggle room with my higher point dinner that I'll be having.  Dinner is a Hello Fresh meal - zuchinni & parm crusted chicken.  Yesterday's HF meal was even higher in points, but was very good.  I was giving the free trial a try - and it is awesome, just too expensive to keep up on right now. 

Postive Thoughts about Myself:

I have pretty eyes.

I am a good mom.

I am dedicated to not giving up on my health.

I am a kind person.

Okay - so this is way harder for me than it should be. I'm sitting here thinking - well, I am good at this, but then I do this.. I find myself wanting to say "I can be a kind person" rather than "I AM a kind person" because I'm not always kind. You know?  I'm going to have to really reflect on this more...reflect on ME more..  This is probably a good challenge for most people.  I could make a book listing out my faults, or where I feel I lack.  But trying to make a good list of positives in myself, is really hard. I think I don't like to think about myself.  I don't let myself think about what I really like to do, let alone what I like about myself. And I'm not being negative here. Just realizing more that I don't put myself where I should be.  I tend to put others feelings/wants/desires before my own.  That, I think, can be a good and a bad.  It's just something I need to take time for and think about more.

So that's my homework.  Make a better list of positve things about ME and a list of things that I enjoy!  Maybe not everyone struggles with this, but if you find yourself struggling, join me in the homework :) 

xoxo

Katie

Weigh In: Success!

Weigh in on Saturday went great!  I was down 6.9 lbs. What what?!!!?!!  Yes!!!  That felt great!  Everyone celebrated with me and it just felt really good. I was proud of myself.  The group is great.  I shared what I did to make my week successful and everyone is just so supportive. I know I would not have the same success if I did the program online. That's why I couldn't just do MFP.  I need the extra support, understanding, cheering, etc.  One lady came up to me afterwards and thanked me for sharing.  She had been gone from WW for a little while and said it inspired her, hearing my success after coming back just a week ago.  

 
I don't know how I like the one week progress pic... I don't have makeup on, feel like i just splotchy and gross. But I feel like I can see a difference in my face already.  Just need to keep this up.  This is what's going to work for me.  I just want to start putting more time and effort into my appearance because I know that in itself will help so much.  

I'm really hoping that I didn't screw myself over majorly this weekend.  We had our monthly game night on Saturday and I ate and drank wayyyyyyyy outside my points.  I did end up logging everything afterwards and used up all my weekly points.  Oooops!  I stopped logging then.  It's pretty accurate. I probably used a few more.  Each shot of vodka has 3 points.... That added up.  Plus crescent rolls - not so hot for you.  Sunday didn't get any better.  Again, this morning I thought about what I ate and added it into my log.  I'm negative on my weekly points.  Can i just say cake is the worst thing for you I think?!  Holllllllllly crapola.  So I'm 100% focused now. This week will be perfect. I think I can recover from the weekend. I just know that I can't make this a habit. I have to do better for the weekends. And I will :) 

Hope everyone has a great week!!!

xoxo
Katie

Little Victories!

Last night we decided on Chipotle for dinner. I wavered back and forth in my head (not out loud -- I wasn't going to tell Steve that I was on the fence about having it....that'd be crazy!) on whether or not this was a horrible mistake.  I kept looking at my points - telling myself I should just have chicken or not eat - I wasn't feeling the best yesterday afternoon.  But then I pulled up chipotles menu (and nutrition info!!!!) and figured out what I could have AND stay in my points.  I did it!!!  I chose a bowl, with rice (no beans), steak, fajita veggies, green salsa, lettuce, cheese and sour cream.... and it was all in my points!!! Chipotle is very friendly if you're counting cals, watching fat, points, carbs, etc.  You can build what you want, and then see the breakdown. Made my day!!

Can I just tell you that I still felt incredibly guilty having it?  LOL It stems from my mindset of restrictions are the way to go.  I have to let go of that and realize with WW, it's just all about choices!  I can have whatever - I just have to make up for it with a "sacrifice" somewhere else.  I'm excited - and nervous - to weigh in tomorrow.  I don't know why I'm so nervous. I know what my home scale says.  For some reason, I just worry that there's is going to be way different than mine, or something crazy is gonna cause the numbers to not go the way I think they will. WI anxiety I guess. 

On the radio this morning they were talking about the PSL --- pumpkin spice latte.  The one DJ was going over how bad it was for you, but how we love to indulge in things even though we know they're bad for us.  Mine is energy drinks.  I know I need to get away from them. I know they're bad for you. But they're sooooo good.  And I get the SF ones, so zero cals - zero points. lol But in the back of my mind I know they're not doing me any favors.  So I'll continue to work on it ;) 

This weekend will be a good one - game night tomorrow which I'm super excited for.  I do plan on having some drinks and good (bad) food!! lol  It's after WI so it's all good hahahah  I'll keep the rest of my day in check though!  My nephews bday party is on Sunday, but I will be good for that.  

I'm feeling really good.  

Ready to do this.  

Ready to be a new improved me!!

Who's with me?!

xoxo
Katie

9/14/16

Yesterday was a rougher day for me.  Not sure why, but was just craving the junk food and carbs.  I logged and tracked and was honest with the 2 garlic knots I had with dinner and with fritos I had at work.... I went over my points (dipped a bit into my weekly points) but that's what they're there for. I just know that I didn't start tracking until Monday, so I'm hoping that my weekend and dipping into the weeklys doesn't hurt me too much.  I also had a 10 point yogurt yesterday -- we had bought it before I started WW and you can believe I won't be buying it again. LOL It was delicious, but seriously a yogurt and a bag of fritos being the same point value... don't eat them in the same day. hahah  This was one of those yogurts with the dark chocolate so I know that's why it was so high.  

Today is starting out great though.  A co-worker brought in krispy kreme donuts.  I wasn't going to have one any way, but I wanted to look up the points --- 8 points for an original glazed.  And just knowing myself, I would always have at least 2.... I mean, they dissolve in your mouth and taste like you didn't eat anything.. lol  2 donuts would be 1/3 of my daily points.  And can you imagine if you weren't as heavy as me -- that'd be like 1/2 your days worth!  I do appreciate that they're weighing carbs more.  I think that will really be good for me.

I've still got to figure out dinner for tonight.  Looks like I'll have 18 points to work with.  Maybe a little less if I end up having a snack this afternoon that I haven't accounted for yet.  But I'm loading up on water- going to have some green tea!! I'm really hoping my WI on Saturday is good.  Even to be down a pound.  I'll be happy.  I know I've gotta be better about measuring things out and not guessing.  But I'm getting there!  

Hope everyone's week is off to a great start!! 

xoxo
Katie

Every Pound Matters

Good morning Friends -

This is going to be my new mantra!  "Every Pound Matters" Too many times, I get hung up on the "At 290... 5 lbs is nothing... it doesn't matter until I lose 50!" I'm past that now. Every pound counts. You cannot get to 50 without losing one.  I'm sitting here typing feeling slightly uncomfortable as my jeans are feeling a little tight today.  After a weekend of not close to perfect eating (and drinking), I am ready to start yet another go with Weight Watchers.  I went to my first meeting on Saturday and I do feel like I'm really going to like the class.  The instructor was super nice and informative and I know that she'll be there for any questions I have along the way.  Since last time I had done WW, they have changed up their program.  Now it's called "Beyond the Scale" and from what I can tell, they're wanting to steer you away from carbs and more in to protein.  Protein full items are going to be less points, whereas your carby foods are going to be higher.  Fruits, however, are still zero points. I think this is the right approach for me.  

Before, when I've done low carb, you couldn't have fruits because of the natural sugars. The restrictions make you obsessive.  I think WW has been around so long because it does work. It makes sense and you honestly do have choices.  Sure you can spend 9 points on a pop, or you can have a full meal.  Sometimes the pop may be worth it to get you through.  Of course right now, I have plenty of points.  Just by being more conscious, it may be tough for me to use up all my points like they want you to, but as my points go down, I know it'll be harder.  A girl I work with is a lifetime member and is looking awesome.  She started back a few months ago. 

I'm setting my goal weight at 165.  To reach lifetime, I'll have to be lower than that, but I will adjust it as I go. Right now, that 125 lbs is a big enough goal for me.  They're focusing more on the whole YOU instead of just the scale....hence the name of the program. lol  That's something I do need to do. I need to take care of me..  Find the balance in everything.. 

Our new house is coming along so great. It's really feeling homey.  We still have things to do, but I'm feeling so much better about everything. I just need to stop being so lazy.  I know a lot of it has to do with my weight - that I don't feel like doing stuff.  That's probably why I'm so tired a lot of the times too.  My thyroid may play into that too -- I should get some new bloodwork sometime too -- but I'm going to do my best to start moving more.  I know I've dreaded moving the boxes to the basement that need to go because it's really hard on my knees, but all in all it will help me.  After the bulk of our move, it really killed my knees.  But they're feeling better for the most part. I just need to get this weight off of them.  

I'm loading up on my water today.  Tracking. And figuring out my plan :) I've set my month goal at just over 6 lbs. It should be easy. I'm doing that on purpose. I want to have that success. I'd love to blow it out of the water.  I'm looking forward to celebrating at my meetings the successes I have along the way, and having the support for the struggles.  

xoxo
Katie

P.S. Kel - I think you should start blogging again too :)