Because I know you're all dying to know...

....yes! I lost! I lost 2.5 lbs this week! It doesn't totally redeem myself from my gain last week - but I will this week!!!! 

So a total of 6 lbs down so far....not bad!!! I'm so used to the fads that drop the lbs fast.......it's hard to see that I haven't lost 10 lbs yet....not gonna lie!  But I know this is the better way! 

I'm sure I'll update again on Monday -- wish me luck this weekend to make good choices :) 

--Katie

Happy Friday!!!

Great weigh in this morning! Down 1.2lbs for a total of 5.4lbs in the last 5 weeks. Slow and steady. It's easier said than done. I want to see huge losses. I want 5lb weeks, but I know with nursing, it's just not going to happen. So slow and steady it is! I've been using most of my weekly points on the weekend, and then staying within daily allowance all week. It works because I feel im splurging on the weekend but ready to refocus once monday is here! So I think I'll stick with that strategy for awhile :-) 

Feel like I'm cheating..

And maybe I am....

Ugh - it's been another semi rough week. At least I've mostly tracked!  But I still wasn't feeling confident for tomorrow's weigh in.  I need a reset and to see a loss tomorrow.  So, i'm turning to fruit day.  Day one of the sevendaysinhell ---errrr 7 day diet...The beginnings of mine and Kel's journey together LOL  BUT, I'm only doing fruit day. It's just to help me reset today, have a decent weigh in tomorrow and then try again to have an honestly successful WW week.

And I mean, technically I'm supposed to eat a lot of fruit with WW......sooooo i'm just skipping a few points... lol

But, I just ate a bowl of watermelon.  I have cuties, apples, raspberries, pineapple, melon and grapes.  I did pick up a progresso light veggie soup if I need it.  I've been scouring the blog and fb to try to find out how my previous fruit days have gone and I can't find anything!!!! I think only Kelly had done 7 day since we started this blog.  And FB isn't the most searchable.  Sooooo I'm hopeful that this is a good thing.  (Edit: One discouragine thing is that I did see Kelly's recap after her last fruit day and she didn't lose a lb....waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh)

Gonna have an activity/fitness challenge starting with some of the MayMoms starting on Sunday.  It'll be 4 or 6 weeks so that'll be great!  I need something to force me to get SOME activity in!!! I really need to see if my fitbit is working.  Steve will be getting a pedometer soon so we can do some of our own challenges too!!!  Soooo I get to have a Textie reunion next month.  Ms. Kelly told me I need to lose 8 lbs by then. {she's so strict}  So many challenges for me to accomplish :) Totally doable and I hope I do!!

Lots going on - lots to focus on - lots to do.  I just really need to start making a positive difference in my body.  I wanna feel good about myself and lose my belly....well butt, thighs, etc too. hahaha

-- Katie

Each day is a new chance to get it right

If you know me...or have read any of my previous entries....you know I struggle - pretty much constantly.  I have spent so many years letting food control me that it's hard to change.  Too many times over the years I've jumped on the quick fix train.  The promises, guarantees, sworn testimony that for "Only $XXX.xx you can lose 10 lbs in 10 days", "If you eat fruit one day, veggies the next, bananas and skim milk the next, only tomatoes and chicken the next........ and so on - you will lose!!!"  "If you take these pills, with this shake 3x a day you will be lose the weight so fast"  I'm so glad that it works for some people, but for me, all I've found is that {for me} it is wasted money, another dig at my self esteem, and more lbs that pile on afterwards. Don't get me wrong... I LOVE success stories!  I absolutely love reading reviews, seeing before and after pics, reading life changing stories --- but nothing I've tried previously has ever done anything for me mentally.  I still have the same mentality about food, I just, during those times of dieting, withold things that I want. I don't ever forget about taco bell, pizza, or my creamer with a splash of coffee.......and when I've done those "quick fixes" - I find that sure I'll hold back for a week, a month, maybe even 3 months like with the VLCD.......but then I'll stop and I'll go CRAZYOVERBOARD with those things I loved and missed.  That's how you go from 250 to 300 in a matter of months.

I'm probably rambling, but this is why I think that WW is going to be my ultimate success tool.  Will it take a while? Yes!  {A May Mommy shared her WW success of 65 lbs in a year! Woot!}  In my eyes, I failed last week. I let it ALLLLL go, alllll week long and I gained.  Does that surprise me? No.  Is it embarrassing - yes. But it happens.  This is all learning for me.  It's been a month - I could've been better.  But I'm learning. My weekend still wasn't amazing but yesterday was a totally logged day and I'm on my way for that today too.  My weekly points may be dwindling, but if I'm going to use them, I'd rather have them used in the beginning of the week anyway.

I haven't stepped on my home scale to get a
 feel for how I'm doing. Honestly, I'm still nervous.  I just need to use those nerves to keep me in check.  Today I have been on it.  I'm really doing good.  Only fruit for snacks and it's almost lunch time :) 
I hope everyone has a great day!!  

--Katie

P.S. Is it summer yet?!!!

Faced the music...

...and it wasn't pretty!!

After a week of being sick, not logging and not caring, the scale put me in my place. I was up 3.6 lbs this week! An embarrassing story because I like to overshare.... Yesterday I decided I would go to panera for a bagel and cream cheese. After I ordered that, I though ahhhh throw in a bear claw....oh yeah, sure I need something to drink so why not a frozen caramel. I had no intention of logging yesterday but when I did I was shocked! That trip to panera was my WHOLE DAYS WORTH OF POINTS!!!! 44 points without even thinking! Uhhhh lesson learned though. 

So today I am back on track. Still not feeling 100% but I'll get there. I'm following my points this week! No 44 pt meals! No absolute craziness. I'm going to be accountable and definitely see a loss next week. I'm shooting for 5 lbs.

The leader today had on the board "Failure is the key to success. Each mistake teaches us something." She said that to her, it was incomplete though. She added "if we are willing to learn from it."  That is 100% true. And 100% relevant to me especially this week. Thank you to Kelly and my May Moms who pushed me to go to my meeting today. I definitely needed it and it wound up being the perfect topic. I shared about my week and got teary eyed...but it felt good being honest about what I was feeling. 

Send me responsible eating vibes :) 

Xoxo

Katie

Miracles I tell you...

I totally thought I'd be up at least a pound. I should've been up. But miracles happen I guess! I'm glad I went to weigh in this morning because I did have another loss! If I keep it together this week maybe I'll see 10 lbs next week! 

We shall see!! 

So I'm still feeling awful. Sneezing, coughing, drained, just feel pitiful. 

Hoping this goes away soon!! The weather is warming up and I want to take advantage of it!!!  

Just wanted to post a quick update! 

Xoxox

Katie

ughhhhhhhhhhhh

Man - just when the weather starts getting nice, I start feeling like poo! 

Wednesday I ended up leaving work early and getting some rest -- just hoping that I would miraculously end up feeling better.  No such luck.  Since then I've just been hacking away.....trying to figure out whether to hold my chest, my head or cross my legs when I cough.  It's typically a combination of at least 2 of those.  

With feeling like crap, comes comfort eating.  You don't want to cook, put forth any effort, or eat your veggies....  So with that, I'm worried about the scale tomorrow.  I tossed around the idea of going to my meeting, but not weighing but I figure that won't really help anything.  So I'll weigh and again hope to maintain from last week.  We're not going out to dinner tonight - so I won't have to make the tough decisions on what to get or not get from the yummy Italian place.  I also canceled game night tomorrow so I don't think I'll bust into weekly points on day 1 like I normally do on Saturday.  lol 

I did great yesterday and I'll have another great day today.  I weighed on my home scale today and I *think* I'll be okay tomorrow.  I know this isn't an overnight thing, and it's not a quick fix.  I'm retraining my whole self.  I eventually need to figure out how to not comfort eat the bad foods - or at least not as many.  I'll get there - I'm sure I will.  

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

--Katie

Struggling

Ughhhhhhhhh - this week I am really struggling.  This shouldn't be hard. It's really not.  There's so much flexibility with WW but all I want is junk...lots of junk... 

Monday was such a crappy day at work.  From dealing with the unemployment agency about our shut down around Christmas, to a co-worker who makes me insane....it just ruined the awesome mindset I started with. And so I've just been blah about work today which just makes me want to stuff my face :( Sooo we can safely say that I'm out of weekly points and it's only Wednesday.  I already don't want to weigh in on Saturday.  

So I need to work on figuring out work - that's where my biggest struggles start.  I should really just start wearing my headphones and listening to music all day.  I'm really going to have to focus today, tomorrow and Friday.  I don't want a gain.  I'd be so embarrassed.  Uggggggghhhhh  Doesn't help that I feel like I'm coming down with a cold or something too. 

I'm planning on a big salad for dinner tonight!  I think that'll be good.  Gotta really keep up on the water today too. 

Uggggghhhhhhhhh.....that's all I got. :(  

--Katie

Still here...still counting points

Ok, you haven't heard from me because I have 1 or 2 children on me at all times, BUT, I've been counting points and staying on track for the most part. The first weigh-in I was down 2lbs! Then on Friday I weighed and was up .8. I was pissed. I used most of my weekly points, but that's aloud! I didn't know what happened. So for the hell of it I weighed again on Saturday and bam! Down a pound from the previous week! So I'm going with 3lbs down. Not a lot, but It's going in the right direction. DOWN!

Last night we celebrated my mother in laws birthday with italian food and a cake me and Mini-me made. I overdid it on dinner  but avoided alcohol, so that's a start. I tracked everything and when everyone left, I made mr. W throw out the rest of the cake. I knew I couldn't handle having it sit on the counter. It's embarrassing to say that. That I can't trust myself to not overindulge. But I can't. That 3am feeding for Captain Adorable just triggers me to go after sugar. So it's gone and I feel good that I didn't lose control. 

So here's to another week. The only challenge I have this week is a dinner with friends on Friday that will probably be pizza, but my weekly points reset that day so I should be ok!   

I just need to remember who im doing this for (well, besides ME!) 

-kelly

Recap from the weekend!

So Saturday was my WW meeting. The meeting after all the cheesecake on vacation.  I was hoping to maintain.  Stepped on the scale.  She asked how my week was, and I told her it was rough with vacation and I was just praying I'd maintain.....  I lost 0.2!!  Even better!  

After my meeting I headed out to get my mom and we drove up to the casino.  One plus was lots of walking there.  So much standing in line for various things though. We registered for the Price is Right show but didn't get called to come on down or anything. Jerry Springer hosted --- eh. LOL  We had a great weekend though - Mary made it up there and we all had fun!

Downfall was the buffet eating. BUT I didn't really eat all that much and I did log what I ate to the best of my approximations.  I for the most part stuck to water or diet for drinking.  I didn't have alcohol and just 2 coffee drinks and they weren't like biggby drinks all loaded with whipped cream and what not.  We just did the buffet twice and I only had dessert the one time. :-D  I think I'm doing pretty good this week, but ready to be all focused for the rest of the week. I'd like to see at least a 2 lb loss.  

On Saturday, the WW coach had us write down where we wanted to be in 5 weeks (between 0-10 lbs loss)  So I of course said 10.  Totally doable and I should be able to exceed that no problem.  There's no reason I shouldn't.  At the weight I am now, I think it's totally realistic to lose more than 2 lbs a week and still be doing it a healthy way. Below are my milestones through WW that I've achieved.  5 lb loss the first week and thank goodness for the 0.2 lbs so that I got the "streak" star. haha  The first goal they have set for me is 5% --- 284.8.  9.2 more lbs to go.  It's nice that they break up the goals.  They haven't even specified an ultimate goal for me yet.  I guess you decide that with your coach later down the line --- sometime after your 10% goal.  

This week shouldn't be too bad.  On Friday I think we'll be going out to dinner but I will need to be on my best behavior!  Weighing in the following morning = no leeway or time to make anything up!!! 

--Katie

Yesterday was great!

I felt completely in control.  By the evening I was getting hungry, but everything was logged!  I think I still had two extra points too. Tomorrow morning is the day...dun, dun, dunnnnnnnnnnn.  I don't really know how my scale at home compares to the WW scale, but what it said on my last weigh in day and this moring is the same!   That gives me hope!!!! I may have survived this vacation!!!! 

Good choices today!  Logging it all.  Water and tea, water and tea!  I forgot my big water bottle tho so that makes it harder for me to do as much water, but I'll get some extra steps in and just walk to the water cooler more. lol Lunch and dinner are both going to be WW Smart ones I think.  I just really want to do everything I can for a good weigh in.  

After my meeting tomorrow morning I'm picking my mom up and we're heading out to Mt. Pleasant for Girls Weekend!! Thank goodness my weekly points reset :)  Mary will be meeting us up there.  We're gonna come on down, for the Price is Right Live!  haha  

Mom and I will get there early to register so hopefully at least one of us will get picked to be a contestant. Maybe we'll win a trip or something!!!  Somewhere warm!! We can hope! 

Kelly - this goes out to you since I went over my weekly allowance. Ooops:

xoxo 
Katie

Home Sweet Home!

Back from Colorado and back to the grind!!  Working today and trying to stay awake. It's not too bad though - Claire actually slept fairly well, and her amazingly wonderful Dad let me sleep in my own bed and checked on her when she woke up in the middle of the night!!! He's pretty awesome!

The trip was great - REEEEEELAXING!!! We didn't do a whole lot, and I was okay with that. I needed a break and I got one :) Grandma is sooo freaking sweet.  This is what I came to find in our room:

She's like "I remembered they were your favorite" Cue the Awwwwwwww!  She remembered from when we got married in 2008!!! They had white roses and a teddy bear sent to our room then. She is such a sweetheart!! Love them both so much!  There was also a bowl full of Lindor Truffles (brag: I had NONE)

My eating wasn't horrible - but not amazing either.  My downfalls: regular pop and cheesecake...ooooh cheesecake.....BUT I think I did mostly good tracking what I did have.  Bigger breakfasts than normal, but we really only ate two real meals each day.  Sooo I'm kinda terrified of the scale at my meeting on Saturday.  Ugh! But maybe i'll surprise myself and be okay!  I'm so on track today it isn't funny!  I used one of the itWorks! wraps this morning for a few hours.  I've been drinking tons of water. I'm onto an itWorks! green drink right now......and that Monster in the background? I haven't opened it...... yet......  LOL But that is something!  

I'm about -5 on my weekly points for WW so no more points out of the daily ones.  But that's okay.  I lost over 5 lbs on my first WW weigh in, so if I maintain with this vacation I will be thrilled!!!!  I'm just going to keep chugging the water and pray for the best!!!!  

Hope everyone is doing well! 

<3 Katie