Each day is a new chance to get it right
If you know me...or have read any of my previous entries....you know I struggle - pretty much constantly. I have spent so many years letting food control me that it's hard to change. Too many times over the years I've jumped on the quick fix train. The promises, guarantees, sworn testimony that for "Only $XXX.xx you can lose 10 lbs in 10 days", "If you eat fruit one day, veggies the next, bananas and skim milk the next, only tomatoes and chicken the next........ and so on - you will lose!!!" "If you take these pills, with this shake 3x a day you will be lose the weight so fast" I'm so glad that it works for some people, but for me, all I've found is that {for me} it is wasted money, another dig at my self esteem, and more lbs that pile on afterwards. Don't get me wrong... I LOVE success stories! I absolutely love reading reviews, seeing before and after pics, reading life changing stories --- but nothing I've tried previously has ever done anything for me mentally. I still have the same mentality about food, I just, during those times of dieting, withold things that I want. I don't ever forget about taco bell, pizza, or my creamer with a splash of coffee.......and when I've done those "quick fixes" - I find that sure I'll hold back for a week, a month, maybe even 3 months like with the VLCD.......but then I'll stop and I'll go CRAZYOVERBOARD with those things I loved and missed. That's how you go from 250 to 300 in a matter of months.
I'm probably rambling, but this is why I think that WW is going to be my ultimate success tool. Will it take a while? Yes! {A May Mommy shared her WW success of 65 lbs in a year! Woot!} In my eyes, I failed last week. I let it ALLLLL go, alllll week long and I gained. Does that surprise me? No. Is it embarrassing - yes. But it happens. This is all learning for me. It's been a month - I could've been better. But I'm learning. My weekend still wasn't amazing but yesterday was a totally logged day and I'm on my way for that today too. My weekly points may be dwindling, but if I'm going to use them, I'd rather have them used in the beginning of the week anyway.
I haven't stepped on my home scale to get a
feel for how I'm doing. Honestly, I'm still nervous. I just need to use those nerves to keep me in check. Today I have been on it. I'm really doing good. Only fruit for snacks and it's almost lunch time :)
I hope everyone has a great day!!
--Katie
P.S. Is it summer yet?!!!
You are so very hard on yourself lady and you really shouldn't be. Everyone has something in their lives that has control of them, for you its food, for me it's smoking for others it could be any number of hundreds of things. The key is to find that outlet that helps us get through the rough patches. That is why I'm so glad you started WW. They have a support system and they teach you how to take back control and work on your self esteem first. You are an amazing, beautiful lady and you are going to take control, I just know it. Hopefully we can join Yoga together and we both like it and can be a support group for each other! I love you girl and want you to see what everyone else sees in you, a strong, confident wonderful woman struggling with something so very many people do. You got this, just remember, your confidence in yourself needs to be built up first, know that you can do this, know that you are strong and able to accomplish anything you put your mind to. Then work on those nagging negative thoughts that pop into your head. Those ones that make you feel defeated, those suck the strength right out of you. Push those out, concentrate on your goal and tell yourself you've got this.
ReplyDeleteI will be going through this process myself soon and will try to quit smoking, we can support each other with these problems that control us. We can talk to each other when we feel like letting these vices take back control. We can do this together, we are strong women and will not give up! Love you bunches lady!