Yesterday I embraced my not-being-super-crazy-ness with my low carb eating. I had a chicken fattoush salad for lunch and ate some of the pita chips in it and ate some croutons with my salad at dinner. lol We went out to a steakhouse for dinner and I didn't have any rolls!!!!! That's huge. The rolls with the butter are the BEST. But I was good. I didn't even have the one they included with my dinner that they made into a garlic bread. I know that right now I don't have the self control to have one roll, or one piece of candy, or one slice of pizza.... I'm just not there yet. And that's okay. I'll get there.
So Monday was when I started cutting out carbs, and I'm already down at least 7 lbs from then. So that's pretty awesome. As for the DietBets, I'm 50% to my goal for the Losing is Winning Game I started that ends Aug 9th. I'm 66% to my goal for the big Heidi & Chris Powell game that ends Aug 21st. I have no doubts that I'll get to the big games goal - the challenge will be making sure I'm still there when it comes time to weigh out. I have this habit of screwing things up before they matter! But I'm going to do this. I need to.
This is actually a really uneventful weekend for us. We've just got to take the crazy cat in to the vet for a booster and then Sunday we've got a game day at my aunts. I've already decided to bring a layered greek dip so that'll be good -- and then they're grilling so I will just do whatever, without a bun :)
I can't wait til I get to the point where I feel successful.... where I feel accomplished... where I feel like I've done really done something and feel gorgeous. I've been doing a little better, but I still am a big work in progress with confidence. Sure I've lost 7 lbs this week, but that's after letting myself gain 30... or whatever. For me, even though I keep going, keep pushing through, keep starting over, keep keeping on.... I can't forget that "geez, when I started really trying to lose weight I was 50 lbs lighter"... How does that happen? How do you let that go? I think that's part of what screws me up all the time. I know that's why I started a new MyFitnessPal profile once. Because I didnt' want to see that I started out at 230 or whatever, and wound up gaining all this. I know it is what it is, but it's still depressing. So it's just trying to figure out how to get past that. I mean, I guess if I just keep losing and don't gain again, maybe I won't think about it? lol I don't know.
Annnnnd cue the bagels that were just brought in to the office. Not having one. No worries. Not having candy from the overflowing candy dish. Had my hard boiled eggs for breakfast. Have leftover steak and green beans for lunch. Probably chicken and cauliflower for dinner tonight. Would just like to sleep right now. That'd be amazing.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
xoxo
Katie
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