Ya know...

....the worst part of your husband reading your blog is that he holds you accountable for what you say in it....

Haha...love you babe... but seriously, as most evenings go, that's where i lost it.  All I wanted was Slice of the 80s......their pizza is delicous and I could totally go for some cheese bread.  Yes. I know. Horrible for me. I probably would've gained 5 lbs overnight.  But he's like "No way. You have to stay accountable like you said in your blog." Damnit! But thanks to him, I'm down a pound today.  

26 lbs gone. I haven't been this *light* since September.  I'm getting there.  So last night I couldn't sleep for crap.  OMG. I swear I tossed and turned and then was wide awake from 2-4:30 or so...UGH.  All I wanted was to take some Nyquil at 3 a.m. but I knew nothing good (except sleep) would come of that.  If I think I'm tired now, I would've been zombie tired had I taken anything.  

I feel like my blog has to be kinda (probably really!) boring for people to read. SORRY! It's not like I can share recipes or food ideas....It'd be like "Today, I took a packet of pudding, and mixed it with 4 1/2 ounces of water for a thinner pudding...oooooohhhh" LOL Sorry guys.  But I really appreciate all the support - it seriously means the world to me.  Some people have said they're shocked with how honest I am -- to me, the scale is a number...a number I don't want to see anymore....it is what it is, so I don't have a problem sharing it.. I'm working on it.  I know some people are going through the same struggles with weight as I am....the same issues with food.....the same troubles staying motivated, so all I want to do is maybe be a little inspiration or motivation for someone... I know I have a coworker who was complimenting me this morning - she said, "now I need to do it!"  I'm very honest...it's hard...it sucks...but I know it'll be worth it!  If I feel better after 26 lbs....how will I feel after 50 lbs are gone? After 100 lbs?! I'm so excited to find out.  

Do I struggle? Yes!!  Do I complain? Yes!  Do I want to give up? NO!  

A big shout out to Steve and Kelly for being my biggest (and strictest) cheerleaders -- and a big thank you to everyone who reads this, likes & comments, relates, or is in the same boat.  Love you guys!! Seriously :) 

-- Katie