H2O

I've fallen off the water train....me... the girl who used to drink 100s of ounces a day.  Craziness. I need to get back.  I think I might pick up one of those big gulp cups or a pitcher to have at work and maybe add lemons to it too or something.

I signed up for this DietBet thing.  You pay $30 and are challenged to 4% of your body weight in 4 weeks.  Chris and Heidi Powell should be sharing tips and encouragment along the way, but you don't have to follow anything specific to lose the weight.  Meet or beat the goal and you split the pot with the other winners.  At the very least you get your money back!!!  It starts on July 22nd (weigh ins start on the 20th) so sign up with me!!! The more the merrier!! What do we have to lose - besides some lbs.  For me, 4% will likely be around 10 lbs. or so.  You know you want to..... http://diet.bt/pFjmgJ  

Right now there's over $12,800 in the pot with 429 players signed up.  It's going from July 22 - Aug 18th.

The mental hurdle I have to overcome with joining challenges like this, is that I feel like I need to keep eating crap until it starts so I give myself the best chance of winning.  Uh, Katie, you weigh over 250 lbs.  Even if you start now and lose some, you have plennnnnnnnnnnnnnnty more to lose in 4 weeks. LOL 

I've been watching more of those shows - the Extreme Weight Loss - and it is inspiring.  The only thing that gets me, is that it seems like everyone has a really sad story that got them to the point they're at.  They went through a bad divorce....or their mom died in front of them... or their husband had PTSD and killed himself....  It makes me feel bad - not bad for myself, I'm blessed, but moreso guilty that I really really shouldn't be where I am.  I don't have any crazy reason like that.  I don't know what my reason is.  I do know that I tend to be scared of failing and disappointing people so when I get close to a success, I sabatoge myself. I know it doesn't make sense, but that's what I do.  Obviously.  I mean, I was at 240.5 or whatever and I freaked out, gave up so to speak, and could get to the 239.9 that I was soooo close to.

I don't get it. It's weird. I'm still trying to lay out the carb cycling plan for myself.  I'm just getting stuck because I want someone to give me a set meal plan.  Not just give me some recipes and say go at it. LOL  I want a M-F tell me everything I'm going to eat - exactly what exercises I'm going to do - etc.  I am using the exercises laid out in the sample pages from Chris' book.  So I'll keep working on this and try to finish it up soon so that i can get started.  I want to start on a Sunday so if not this Sunday, I'll start the Sunday before the contest begins.  

I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend <3

--Katie