(but still!!)But again, it is what it is, and I can either choose to be down on myself...say screw it, and eat whatever I want (and don't want) just because, OR I can choose to make good choices, pick myself up, and do whatever it takes to never see that number again. I choose #2
I am going to try to not weigh every day (I know, I ALWAYS say that) but I'd like to see a decent number on the scale --- seeing "5 lbs lost" would make much more impact than 1 lb here, .5 here, 1.5 etc So I will try. I make no promises with that though. :) Speaking of promises -- yesterday I didn't get my water in. Bummer!! But I did do my hair/makeup and didn't have any regular pop. So 2 out of 3. Today I'll work harder at getting all my water in!!
Sooooo you know I'm always changing things up. I came to the realization yesterday that if I set myself up to carb cycle - I'm kinda giving myself more chance at slipping and falling right back to where I am. I get the science behind it, but it's still kinda gimicky -- just in the fact that "Am I really going to be able to keep up with this (and do I want to)??" It's going to take a lot more thought process than just eating healthy. So I'm going back to logging in MFP, sticking to calorie goals, still working on finding time to get back to the gym, and just being honest with myself AND others. So stalk my diary on MFP (kdw6383), message me, bug me, ask me flat out if I need to confess anything. I need the accountability and support.
I don't want to see the girl I saw in the bazillion mirrors at Mackinac Island ever again.
I want to learn to believe in myself.
I want to not be afraid of disappointing and letting other people down.
I want to do this for me.
I want to feel pretty and shop for cute clothes at any store I'd like.
I won't give up!
--Katie
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