I should've taken a picture, but omg, the bathroom at our condo in Mackinac was hell....pure hell. Not that it was in bad shape, it was great....but mirrors EVERYWHERE. Mirror next to you as you're sitting on the toilet, mirror behind you....mirrors across from you around the jacuzzi tub.....mirrors mirrors mirrors.....I saw myself in more angles than I would've ever imagined. It made me realize one thing though...my husband really loves me. I never really realize how big I really am. But seeing allllllllllllllll of me like that was eye opening.
So on that note, I'm doing Herbalife right now. Shake for breakfast, shake for lunch and no clue about dinner yet. Getting back on the water train too. I was too close to 239 to be where I am now...BUT I am here... and it's the choices I made. So I have to do myself a favor and make some better ones. Gotta get serious again. I should've just jumped back into my VLCD today, but I himmed and hawed because of the 4th of July and game night this weekend. But I think today through Saturday I'll do Herbalife and maybe jump to VLCD on Sunday. Kinda ease back into that 600 cals/day. LOL I'm gonna get back to the 240's in no time and then move forward. Gonna stop drinking my calories. Between regular pop and booze...gotta just cut.it.out. Who needs that stuff when you got good ole H2O?!! I mean, that's totally the best ;)
Anywho - I'm totally sore today. I've been totally sore the past few days. So much walking, hills, hiking, etc. It was really good exercise but putting on those nearly 20 lbs again hurt me bad. Holy crap. All I could keep thinking was *gasp* I'm so *gasp* out of *gasp* shape *siiiiigh* But I hiked up to the highest part of the island with Steve and Mary even though I would've rather (hypothetically) rested and took a nap. It was gorgeous!!
Definitely worth the 5 mile round trip walk. :) I really need to find a good pair of shoes for walking/hiking/etc. My ankles hurt. Part of that is from yesterday though. I faced some fears and did ziplining. I was soooo nervous and really wanted some anxiety meds as I was walking the path to get there. lol It was fun, but ROUGH landings - and I know a good portion of that was due to my weight. When I landed on the second zip line my helmet actually flew off my head. Here's a couple pics -- the last one is Steve coming in on the first zip line.
So it was a great trip. Great time with family. And just the kick in the pants I needed. No more screwing myself over. No more letting myself fall apart. No more excuses. Yes, I'm human...yes, I'll make mistakes....yes, that's OKAY! But it's not okay to use that as a crutch to say I can keep intentionally making bad choices. I deserve better. My family deserves better. This sweet little girl deserves better :-D
--Katie
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