Weekend = Not so hot

So... not gonna lie - I wasn't the best by far this weekend.  But, I'm back today.  I'm also starting to feel better healthwise so that is helping.  I need to bust my butt to break even this week, probably, but I'll do it.  Kinda bummed that I didn't get into the moscato I bought last night but I'll just leave it sealed for another time. I'm human --- I'm not perfect --- I fall down, but I get back up.  

Just because I screwed up doesn't mean that I'm giving up on the program. I'm not!!  It works. I know it does. And I'm sticking with it.  I have less than 100 days til I meet my commitment goal.  2 days of screwing up (not full days) doesn't toss me out of the game.  In the back of my mind I'm wondering if this will work kinda like calorie cycling where since I didn't eat great, if now that I'm back on track I'll see a big loss again.  Probably not.  But it makes you wonder.  

So I had my mocha shake this morning and my protein chips.  Gonna grab my zero cal Monster soon!  

Hopefully I didn't disappoint anyone --- I know one person I probably I'm sure I did --- Kel! Sorry!  But like I said, I'm not giving up at all!!  <3

--Katie

Feeling so drained!!!

This cold is taking it's toll.  I know it's just a cold, but I think with this diet it's just totally draining me.  Just feeling somewhat defeated.  I just crave comfort foods and to feel better.  Hopefully I'll be getting there soon!!  C is doing better - so hopefully I'm next!!  So I was going to wait until Wed to weigh but I wanted to make sure I wasn't gaining.  Today I'm the same as on Wed so I'll take it.  I also decided it was worth it to take dayquil today. I need some relief and don't want to totally annoy everyone at work.  

Tomorrow I've got a craft show for Origami Owl -- hoping to sell a lot of my inventory, because...well...I have a LOT. LOL Need to scale back a bit and then get some of the new items :) And then get some parties booked!! And then we'll have game night which should be fun.  

Okay - just a short update today cuz I'm not feeling it. lol  TGIF!

--Katie

Week 3: Not great, but done!

So this week wasn't so hot.  I am down, so that is good.  My ticker looks the same, but I am down a little under 2 lbs.  Last week it rounded up on the ticker, and this week it didn't -- so there ya have it.

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But I'm down a total of 17.6 lbs. since March 5th.  I've also got a killer cold which isn't helping things at all. I know part of my anti-loss was the pizza the other day and then last night we went out to dinner to celebrate my hubs promotion.  I did just get a salad with FF ranch, but did have some grilled chicken on it.  Although I didn't eat a lot of it, it wasn't with the program and I'm sure it didn't help this morning.  And just so you know, I did make good choices - I made them leave off the bacon (GASP!) and didn't eat the yummy bread and butter that came with it.  I took the rest home, but I'm just going to have Steve have it one night.  

Today on the menu is:
B: Mocha Shake
S: Butter Pecan Bar
L: Chik 'n' Fajita 
S: Chocolate Pudding
D: Chocolate Shake

I'm gonna do better this week - gotta stay on track 100% and see at least 3 lbs. next week --- hopefully 5.  Hopefully I'll start feeling better so I can start working out some too.  Annnnnnnd just talking to Kelly - realizing that the dayquil and nyquil I'm taking isn't helping my weight I'm sure - duh, I'm taking the liquid and it has sugar in it! 19g?!!?!!!!!! WTF! Grrrrr!!! Okay okay.... that's all for now.  Next week will be better guys!!! 

--Kate

Sleep is good!

Phew - actually got some decent sleep last night!! Claire just woke up for 5 min which wasn't bad.  Ahhh, I love my new bed. And I love nyquil.  LOL  

So yesterday was just about perfect. In the evening, I started getting queasy - so I did have an extra bar.  But it's still a supplement, so that's not bad.  I logged it and noted why I had it.  I kinda wanted to weigh this morning, but opted not too. Probably for the best. I'm still worried about how that pizza will effect me.  At this point, I might as well just wait til Wednesday and hope for a 3 lb loss this week.  Fingers crossed.  

I love that my pants are looser though and that I think this diet causes me to lose weight in different places than other diets I've done in the past. I'm guessing because you're in ketosis and burning stored fat.  I like it. Normally my pants would fit the same and my bras would get baggy.  I hope this keeps up and I can get into the mounds of size 18s I have at home.  Sometimes I just feel cursed with a big butt and big stomach --- at least if I didn't have so much butt I could fit into smaller pants. HAHA

Oh well. It's all good.  So no gym yet.  I'm going to wait til I'm feeling a little better.  Hopefully that will be soon. It's almost April - we shouldn't be getting colds!!

--Katie

Cheater Cheater

Yep - I cheated.  I couldn't take it anymore and needed to get it out of my system.  Last night I ordered a thin crust pizza and enjoyed it thoroughly. I should probably feel worse than I do, but I don't.  I think part of it was that I was really put off when I met with the exercise phisiologist on Thursday.  I did ask about what if you were to cheat - like one meal in a month - would it totally screw you over.  She kinda himmed and hawed (how do you even spell that?!) and so I threw in "What if I wanted to have pizza one night with my family?" And immediately it was like "No, not pizza - that would not be good...if you wanted to cheat, a better option would be 3 oz of chicken, or fish." Um lady - that's enough to just piss me off, that's not a cheat in my book (well it is - but so not worth it IMO). So then she proceeds to how when I transition to the mid or grocery plan I could talk about healthier alternatives to pizza - ummm - I don't want to hear that I can never have pizza again. This isn't helping things. lol  

I should add in that earlier that day I watched my family eat some of the most delicious pizza ever - from Pias and I didn't have any. Didn't have any of their amazing good carby sourdough rolls either.  OMGTHEY'RESOGOOD....I had a shake and some lettuce. lol I was just miserable yesterday. I was tired of feeling deprived.  I was just crabby and it kept getting worse.  I needed to feel like I had a choice.  So I had a nice evening with my husband and C and we ate our thin crust pizza and watched Frozen.  It was a great night.  

Now if we could just get some sleep that would make things 10x better.  Claire has been sick and not sleeping for crap - and so that means the rest of us aren't sleeping well either.  I also caught whatever she has so that's no fun.  Gonna make for a long day at work today - but hopefully catching up on things from Friday will help.  

The rest of my weekend was good. I was good. And no worries, I'm on it today.  I'm curious to see how this will affect me -- I weighed yesterday morning so we'll see.  I've got my shakes and bar today. I'm gonna be perfect.  As long as I'm feeling okay I'm going to try to get to the gym, but if my main goal is getting healthy and over this cold or whatever, so if I feel like I need rest more, I'm not going to beat myself up - but my eating WILL BE perfect.  

Happy Monday Ya'll.

--Katie

2 weeks down!!!

Annnnnd...another 5 lbs down!  Yes!!

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As hard as this is, I do have to say it's worth it.  Although it stinks a little completely sucks at time - at least it's doing something...I'm doing something!  Luckily I have a great support system or else I'd be back to my old ways.  So I haven't added in exercise yet. I still need to do that.  Tomorrow I meet with the exercise physiologist so I can get her take on things.  I just want to make sure that if there's exercises that I should or should not be doing that I'm following their guidelines.   

I love seeing myself get closer to that halfway point on my ticker --- of course this is not my long term goal - but definitely my goal for this program at least.  To see 235 will be a huge breaking point as I haven't been that "light" in years....  and 199... omygosh that will be incredible.  I cannot tell you when I saw that last but I'm pretty sure it was before I was married!!  We're getting there.  Week by week....pound by pound....  

I'm going to try to stay more positive this week....to keep seeing the good...not just the limitations or exclusions that I've placed on myself.  Thanks for all your support!!

<3 Katie

ZzzzZZZzzzzzZZ

I'm pretty tired this morning.  C didn't sleep well, so that meant none of us slept well.  Dontcha love how that goes?!!!  Ugh!!  Hopefully tonight will be better.

Yesterday was actually a really good day.  Not gonna lie that my "chik 'n fajita" looked less than appetizing -- it looked down right disgusting - but it didn't taste bad.  It wound up more like a soup.  I don't know if that's what it was supposed to do, but whatever - it was edible. lol

Tomorrow I'll weigh and see where I am for week 2!!! I'm pretty excited.  I'm still disappointed that I let myself get to where I was - but I am proud that I'm moving in the right direction.  I know it'll be real once I start moving down and fitting into clothes that haven't fit.  I cannot wait for that.  Just a short post this morning....got lots of work to do :( 

<3 Katie

No Green Beer For Me

Buuuuttt.... I don't really care for beer anyhow, so no biggie :) 

So I'm still here -- I don't always update on the weekends, but I can tell you I was good.  Friday night was tough -- heck, the whole weekend was tough... but I survived! Thanks to my amazing husband really.  He kept me on track and dealt with my supreme crabbiness. (Sorry babe!)

Friday night we went to this amazing restaurant - Iridescence.  The food is amazing.  So trying to be the best I could be without bringing a packet of my powdered chili mac and asking the chef to warm it up, I ended up ordering this beet salad and a side of asparagus.  When the waitress described this beet salad, it sounded like mounds and mounds of different beets on some greens --- but yeah, this is a fancy place so that means dainty, pretty presentations.  It was delicious, but I had about 4 halves of little beets, with some arugala -- It was tasty though!!! It was topped with this cracker type thing and this amazing soft cheese --- I did "cheat" and have about half the cracker and a couple bites of the cheese -- but I had control and didn't eat it all.  I had my side of asparagus too which was good.  No yummy drinks for me - just diet coke and water.  I even stayed away from the fancy bread bowl.  I was impressed with myself, but Kelly still managed to keep me in check by not being too proud that I still had some cracker and cheese... LOL  Love ya girl!

Saturday -- another tough day.  We went to my dad's house.  He's a great cook and always makes yummy yummy food so I knew it would be rough.  I brought all my supplements, including chili mac for dinner.  Kinda tortured myself because we just had food network on while we were there --- ahhh shoot me now.  And that's where my craving for a calzone started. lol  But I just had my dinner while they enjoyed these amazing looking chicken breasts and potatoes. Stayed strong.

Sunday -- the crankiness was coming through strong at first. haha When I start admitting that I'm cranky, you know it's for real.  But it wound up being a great day. We went bowling again (I had a bad day though!) and then we visited with family and stayed in for dinner -- Steve made everyone burgers and I had some soup and roasted veggies.  It was definitely a nice call for him to offer to cook rather than us going out.  We stayed in and played a board game. 

Today I'm feeling good so far. Hoping that at 2:00 I feel the same way. That's typically where I start crashing at work.  I've got this....right??? :) 

Happy St. Patty's Day!

--Katie

It's Friday!

Not sure how I'm feeling about today yet...

I'm hungry. I chose to have a bar and protein chips for breakfast.  Not my smartest move I'm sure.  I've got a headache and water isn't tasting good. lol  I added some Mio - or Target brand comparison - and that helps but ahhh.... 

I don't know.  Just don't feel like being at work today. Suprise suprise.  Luckily it's Friday and we've got a childless night tonight, and it'll be a nice weekend all around.  I love all our family time.  Makes me happy :) 

Anyhow, that's all for now...

--Katie

Quick post

Just a quick note to say that today is going better than yesterday!  Yesterday I don't know what my deal was but had a major breakdown about food -- stupid.  But it's all good.  I treated myself to a sugar-free Monster after work. LOL  

Today's not bad -- I think I'm going to have the chicken soup for dinner and roast some brussel sprouts to go with it tonight! We'll see how adding the "optional" veggies in this week goes.  I've been logging in MFP still so I plan on bringing my logs with me to my next appointment on the 20th. 

Tomorrow is FRIDAY....thank goodness!!!!!

--Katie

Woot Woot!

One week down and drum roll please.......

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10.8 really - but I guess they are rounding.  :) I'm so proud of myself.  This ticker goes to my first big goal --- to see 199. One cool thing is that once I pass the half way point on the ticker (get to 235) that will be the lowest I've been in years.  I only got down to 236 before and then gained it all and more back.  Exciting!!

Okay, okay, I think I'll really hide the scale this week.  I'm too lazy to pull it out of the closet for a compulisive weigh - so we shall see ;)  I know weight loss will be less this week since I've already lost the initial water weight.  I'm feeling really good though.  It's amazing how crap food can make you feel crappy.  

How's everyone else doing?  I can tell you one thing... I am so over this winter.  I cannot wait until it warms up and we can go to the beach, go walk trails at some of the state parks, and even go camping with my hubs and little girl.  I am not a camper, but I will give it a try again :)  All I request is a bathroom at least.  LOL  I'm excited that if we go to Cedar Point this summer I should have fewer fears about fitting on things -- last year was a little rough and I didn't fit on everything.  I don't want to have to deal with that again. 

Summer will be much more fun when I'm healthier...and I'm on my way!! 

--Katie

I'm still doing this!!

Thank goodness for gum!!! 

Holy crap. Yesterday I was feeling like I was going to go in a downward spiral.  I was just hungry and had a headache and kept thinking about food.  I wasn't hungry - but wanted food.  On my way to pick C up, I stopped and got a Diet Dr. Pepper and some gum.  Felt better having that!!

Today is going well - I had a late start to eating today because I had a Dr. appointment this morning. I was pleasantly surprised by what her scale said ... I don't know if it accounts for clothing or what.  But we'll see what mine says tomorrow :) It's been a good week though. I'm proud of myself for sticking with the program 100%.  I've never had this many "good days" in a row.  Last night for dinner I made chili and added some onion, mushroom and green pepper to it.  It was good -- even without cheese and sour cream ;) 

Tomorrow marks 1 week -- I'm excited -- yes, I pretty much know how much I've lost, but it will be nice to make it official :) I'll update tomorrow. 

<3 Katie

DST sucks!

I'm soooo sleepy this morning.  I'm blaming daylights savings time. On a good note, I made it through the weekend!!  Yesterday wasn't hard at all.  We went bowling too -- bowled 4 games!  I figure that was calories burned!! A nice little workout :) 

So a recap of what I ate yesterday:

B- Strawberry pudding
L - Mocha Shake
S - Toffee Bar
D - Spaghetti Bolognese (+ 1 C. Mushrooms = 1 optional food)
S - Chocolate pudding

I'm really surprised that I'm finding this as easy to stick with as I am.  It is impressive that I really don't find myself hungry too much either.  I did pretty good with my water intake over the weekend (as my husband can account for - I practically live in the bathroom LOL) and already have 24 oz down at 8 a.m. this morning.  I'm feeling good. I'm feeling healthier already.  I'm in a better mood too.  

Tomorrow I've got a Dr. appt with my regular dr.  I'm sure we'll discuss the program.  I know I'm heavier than last time I saw her, but at least I can tell her that I'm committed and am already down almost 10 lbs from where I started last week :) 

Well I hope that everyone has a great Monday!!

--Katie

First struggles

Yesterday was the first day I really struggled. I had a little breakdown yesterday afternoon but got over it relatively quickly. Weekends are going to be the hard part for me. But I can do this. So instead of a shake for dinner as I had planned I had a pasta dish. It was much more satisfying. We had been out late last night and I wound up having an extra bar because I felt like I needed it. I don't think it will hurt anything but I'll try not do that on a regular basis. 

Slept in this morning and am not even hungry this morning so that's good. Hopefully today will be an easier day!! 

I couldn't stay away...

...from the scale! I don't get to indulge in anything else -- so why not let me weigh?! Lol but unless you all want to know - I can keep the number to myself -- but if you want to know, comment and I'll share :) I'm really proud of myself. 

Kelly said it right yesterday -- she said this makes 7 day seem gluttonous! Soooo true! Yesterday my soup wasn't very satisfying for dinner so in the evening I did allow myself some optional foods. I used three of my 4 optional foods by having 1 c of Brussel sprouts and a coffee with a tbsp creamer. 

My first weekend day... Please remind me to drink lots of water. During the week I average close to 200 oz but weekends I tend to struggle. 

Okay just wanted to write up a quick update for you all!! Thanks for all the support!

❤️Katie 

Day 2 = a little rougher...

...but not too bad!! I ended up having a headache for the second half of the day. Nothing a little excedrin and sleep couldn't cure though!! :)

Yesterday's food included:

Vanilla shake

Fudge Graham Bar

Strawberry Pudding

Chocolate Pudding

Nacho Cheese Pasta

While this might not like much to you..it was a great snack!

As for the pasta - I was a little nervous when I poured out the packet...

But after cooking it was the most delicious thing I could think of at the moment lol it basically tasted like a chili Mac.

I know not every one agrees with a vlcd but sometimes I think it's the option that some people need. If I start feeling like something is wrong, I will talk to my dr and quit if needed. I'm feeling good - I'm still focused and excited -- not weighing til Wednesday is keeping the excitement. I haven't once felt nauseated - surprisingly enough - I'm happy to have you following my journey too! 

-- Katie

Who would've thunk?

I - me - Katie - could go a day with only consuming 550 calories.  Although I felt a little hungry at times, it was never unbearable, I didn't feel like I was starving myself, and I didn't start getting a headache until 9:30 p.m. or so but I think that was moreso because I was watching TV without my glasses and was getting tired.  I'll take it.  As much as I wanted to weigh today, I didn't because I think it'll be so awesome to see a bigger number.  So on today's menu:

Vanilla shake
Fudge Graham Bar
Chocolate Shake
Strawberry Shake 
and Nacho Cheese Pasta

The nice thing with the shakes is that if you'd rather eat it with a spoon, you can make them into a pudding by adding less water.  I really like that option!!  I'll be so proud of myself when I make it through a week of this.  I know weekeneds will be more challenging.  And I was also thinking yesterday that we have a vacation planned for the end of June...kinda bummed me out a little... BUT I'll be so close to completing my 4 months!!  And I'll have my optional veggies that I can have :) I'm doing this all.the.way.  :)  

I've got this!

--Katie

It's On!!!

Day 1: Yes - VLCD here we are.  I am fully committing to this for 4 months.  (If you see any piece of 'real' food in my hand - slap me, unless it's one of the 4 optional foods I can have for the day...then please let me enjoy) I cannot wait to see the changes that come along with this.  I've never fully committed to anything like this.  Sure I did Herbalife for a month or two --- but even with that, I had days where I cheated or ate bad things.  Not this time.  There's no room for that.  If I want my body to stay in ketosis when I get there, I have to follow the plan to the T.  And I'm prepared to do that.  Piece of cake errrrrr nutrition bar!! 

Countdown Clocks

I'm excited for this.  Oh yeah - I'm nervous too.  I'm not going to lie, I kinda freaked out a little this morning when I was getting our lunches together. I'm packing all Steve's yummy food and I'm taking this?! "WTF is wrong with me.  Okay okay... I'm with it... I've got this... but no banana??? no apple???  No back up food in case I'm hungry????" 

Yeah -- so I tend to freak out sometimes about food - like I'm going to starve. Uh Katie --- you could go quite a while without food. LOL I had my mocha shake and it was tasty.  Next up is the lemon meringue bar at 10 a.m. I tried that one at the orientation and it was really good!  This is going to be great. This is just what I need.  I'm not a fan of the food diary on the medical website we were given access to.  I'll probably just record everything by hand in my journal or use MFP.  I weighed in this morning at 273.  I'm hoping that by next Wednesday I'll be 265.  Now do you think that I can stay off the scale til Wednesday???   I think I might try.  I'd like to see the big drop.  But we'll see. You all know I'm a scale addict :) 

I'll update more later --- please feel free to share my blog with anyone you think might need some inspiration. I'm really hoping to come out from this with an amazing story and real results.

--Katie

Met with the dietician today!

I met with her today and begin my journey to the new me tomorrow!!! I'm excited. She was very nice and explained the plan well - it's tailored for me and my needs so I'm given 600 calories a day that will come from 5 supplements. There are guidelines on the supplements too so that you're getting all the nutrients that you need. I bought a quick start box so that I could try a variety of things and start right away... Check it out!

I also already drafted a food diary so that I knew how long the supplements in this box would last me. It gives me 11 days!! There are also a little over 2 pages of optional foods that I am allowed. I'm allowed 4 servings of these per day if needed. It can be anything from salad greens and ff Italian dressing to mushrooms to creamer to asparagus lol it's nice knowing that there is some flexibility especially if we are going out. Feeling very excited over here. I'm going to give it a few days to get used to the diet and then I'll get back to the gym too.  Got a ways to go but I cannot wait to be under 200 lbs!!!she wants me on this for at least 4 months -- at 5 lbs a week for 4 months, I could very well be under 200 by this summer!!!

--Katie

Almost time!!

Well my eating has been crap lately --- so ready to have the structure I need. I hate the mentality of "I better get this in before I go months without "real" food" but being honest - yep that's where I've been. Between that, the zoo, a birthday party, and a prime rib roast that I didn't want to get freezer burn - you can see where I am at. I'm already prepared to just have a non starchy vegetable salad at this fancy restaurant we go to in a couple weeks to celebrate my stepdads bday. I'm even thinking ahead to Easter and even my birthday - and while it may suck -- I'm betting I'm at a point where I   am so happy seeing the lbs disappear that I don't even miss the smorgasbord of food :) I'll update after meeting with the dietician tomorrow!!

--Katie