Cheater Cheater

Yep - I cheated.  I couldn't take it anymore and needed to get it out of my system.  Last night I ordered a thin crust pizza and enjoyed it thoroughly. I should probably feel worse than I do, but I don't.  I think part of it was that I was really put off when I met with the exercise phisiologist on Thursday.  I did ask about what if you were to cheat - like one meal in a month - would it totally screw you over.  She kinda himmed and hawed (how do you even spell that?!) and so I threw in "What if I wanted to have pizza one night with my family?" And immediately it was like "No, not pizza - that would not be good...if you wanted to cheat, a better option would be 3 oz of chicken, or fish." Um lady - that's enough to just piss me off, that's not a cheat in my book (well it is - but so not worth it IMO). So then she proceeds to how when I transition to the mid or grocery plan I could talk about healthier alternatives to pizza - ummm - I don't want to hear that I can never have pizza again. This isn't helping things. lol  

I should add in that earlier that day I watched my family eat some of the most delicious pizza ever - from Pias and I didn't have any. Didn't have any of their amazing good carby sourdough rolls either.  OMGTHEY'RESOGOOD....I had a shake and some lettuce. lol I was just miserable yesterday. I was tired of feeling deprived.  I was just crabby and it kept getting worse.  I needed to feel like I had a choice.  So I had a nice evening with my husband and C and we ate our thin crust pizza and watched Frozen.  It was a great night.  

Now if we could just get some sleep that would make things 10x better.  Claire has been sick and not sleeping for crap - and so that means the rest of us aren't sleeping well either.  I also caught whatever she has so that's no fun.  Gonna make for a long day at work today - but hopefully catching up on things from Friday will help.  

The rest of my weekend was good. I was good. And no worries, I'm on it today.  I'm curious to see how this will affect me -- I weighed yesterday morning so we'll see.  I've got my shakes and bar today. I'm gonna be perfect.  As long as I'm feeling okay I'm going to try to get to the gym, but if my main goal is getting healthy and over this cold or whatever, so if I feel like I need rest more, I'm not going to beat myself up - but my eating WILL BE perfect.  

Happy Monday Ya'll.

--Katie